MAKE IT THROUGH BASIC TRAINING!!!!

I SO WANT TO DO THIS MYSELF THATS WHY I AM RUNNING AND WALKING AND TRYING TO EAT LESS AS POSSIBLE AND I NEED TO GET ON THE BOAT WITH YOU AND PUSH MYSELF TO DO A HUNDRED ANYTHING ..LOL WISH ME LUCK AND GOOD LUCK TO YOU!!!!

I leave in 32 days. I will be weighing in and hopfully shipping off. I have 32 days to lose 15 pounds. I lost ten in five days. I can do this easy. I run everyday, eat three meals a day, drinking lots of tea, and doing my homework. I go home in nine days. I am so ready to get out of here. I wish I could just take all of my finals right now. and go home. And start waking up early and running. I am going to be running for two hours everyday. a hundred push ups and two hundred sit ups. plus riding my horses, wheelines, farm work, and o-mok-sees. At the end of these twenty days I am going to be in a world of hurt and scared out of my life. Part of me hopes I fuck up and cannot go. i would get a job and hang out with Brittany all summer long. I was starting to wonder if Brittany would like to go running with me. I think that 4:30 would be a little early for her, but it never hurts to ask. I know that if I had her with me I would go that much farther. I love Brittany and if I had known that Brittany was going to be leaving then I would not have shaken on leaving in May. But I did. Oh nine days until my birthday. I will be 20.

I have just started do crazy pushups and situps. I run whenever I can find the time. I do not have down time is anymore. I am freaking out, though. I am going to have to make weight and since I gotten into the army I gained ten pounds. I faked the weight lose, to make weight the first time. I did a wrestlers workout. Really all I eat was celery. I did not drink water, and I ran in grabage bags and sweats. I lost twelve pounds in a week. If I have to I can do it again. Only if I have to. but that means I have to lose the ten pounds first. I have no idea how I am going to do it. school is almost over. four weeks until finals. that means I do not have that long until spring formal and I am tired. Two months until I leave for basic training. I have to lose eightteen pounds. I can do it.

My recruiter’s gr8. should be in the military by october. gonna need prayers on this, friends. basic’s rough, but easier than army, at 6 wks, compared to like, 18