not worry what others think of me

I got in contact with an old school friend on Facebook and it made me aware of what a fragile person I used to be. I inadvertantly got a work colleague in trouble and he confronted me about it. It really didn’t bother me. I figured that I was in a no-win situation. I did what I thought was best at the time and I am not remotely bothered by what that person thinks of me and it feels good.

I found myself being quite nervous at work today because of the other people that I was with in a meeting. I suddenly told myself “what have I got to be nervous of”. I just slowed myself down and found that the nervousness went away.

Well.. i have been trying to achieve this goal for a while, because i have a lot of sh** going on in my life where i have been called certain things like bitch, geek, bookworm, weirdo, loser, emo, show off… and i know it may sound like i’m a little over sensitve but i have always been one to please so yeah… And plus like everyone in my classes are what i like to call ‘pretties’(i call them that because i don’t want to call them names and sink down to their level but by calling them populars i am giving them power so yeah…) and they all think i am preatty bad things. So that’s why i need to not worry about what others think about me. I have got to learn that it doesn’t matter what others think about me it’s what i think of myself. must. remember. that. must…

i’ve stopped giving a shit about what people think of me, and i have no idea how. it just happened. i guess i just realised that if people actually do think something bad about me then how does it TRULY affect me? why should i care?
well i dont.
woo :]

I’m sure most people don’t even acknowledge my existance but i still always feel that I’m pin pointed in a crowd. Like when someone giggles or something I always feels like it’s directed toward me or something. I always feel that after I talk to someone I don’t know, I think that they’re probably talking about me and saying how utterly stupid I am. I don’t like to talk about things I like in front of a lot of people becuase I think that later, again, they are going to talk about how my intrests are stupid or whatever. I really don’t want to be this way. I want to be free and not care what I look like or who I really am and I want morbidly to express myself and not give a hoot who thinks what about it.

i am who i am if anyone has a problem they can screw themselves

I have read an amazing book and i think it will help with this—- its called

THE FOUR AGREEMENTS -SOO GREAT! IT WILL HELP.

I’ve started worrying less and less what people think of me. I’m not sure why… I think it’s a side-effect of my being more social. It seems logical now that that’s how I would worry less of what others think of me.

I’m simply thickening the skin of the worrywort inside of me with repeated social contact.

I still worry though…