fearlessly live the life I want to live, be who I truly want to be, welcome change, unleash my inner, creative, adventurous, warrior self, and have no apologies for it, whatsoever, to anyone

That’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m crossing things off my list that have been there for a long time. I’m being completely honest with myself and clear about my goals and dreams. I’m not worrying about how I’ll be perceived by being myself and sharing my desires. I’m smiling when I feel it. I’m crying when I feel it. I’m jamming out in the car to Run DMC one minute and Neil Diamond the next. I’m loving my family and friends and enjoying my time with them. So maybe I’m kickin’ my own butt and takin’ my own name, but I’m feeling a freedom in daily life that I can’t explain.

always wanted to leave the place where I grew up and start over, looks like It’s finally happening. It almost seems surreal, don’t know if I’ll realize it until the plane takes off. Leaving my “secure” job of 5 years and everyone who knows me…but neither has really made me happy. After doing the same thing for so long, it’s almost as if you can’t break away…you tell yourself it’s “impossible”...”maybe next year”. I figure sometimes you have to take a leap to follow your dreams, no matter how insane they seem to everyone around you. It will definitely be a journey, but I’m looking forward to it.

I was AWESOME!!! =D

Last week I resigned in order to focus on my writing. I’ll still be helping them out once in a while if they need me which is fine with me cos I really do love the company. So I’m not completely moving on but I’m giving myself time to do what I want to do. I better not mess this up and do what people think I’ll do which is bail and spend the year watching tv. My mom even wants me to give her a monthly goal list for this book so that can tell what I’ve done. I’m bloody 26! Unfortunately they are right I have said that I will do a lot of things and never finish it. So whoevers out there I need you to kinda support me on this one please. I want to prove them and myself wrong…I’m not a loser!

im thinking of moving to vegas for a few months to help out at the new hard rock on the strip…if they’ll let me transfer. i’ve never up and moved to a new place on my own before and think it would be an interesting experience.

The past few days especially, I’ve just been feeling so much more comfortable with myself. While I’ve always felt that I’ve known myself, I know this learning is continual. I’ve always tried to be myself, though I know that sometimes it’s been easier than others. I’m feeling much more comfortable with the “no apologies” part. I am who I am, take it or leave it, I am who I am. Truly. I’m not holding back affection for fear of scaring someone. I’m smiling more because life is too short not to. I’m enjoying the sunshine and wind at my face. I’m listening to songs that make me smile and I’m helping to make others smile and laugh. It feels good. I’m not holding back. I’m letting go. Finally. I’m crying when I miss my aunt or my grandfather or… In those tears and in laughter, I remember them and feel that love once again. I’m moving forward, taking steps on my own, without being forced. I’m looking for opportunities I’m interested in. I’m becoming certified for a career while I continue to work my job. I’m reading and educating myself outside of classes, for fun and because I’m interested in these topics. I’m full of thoughts and solutions. I’m taking better care of myself. I’m driving more slowly and carefully. I’m taking care of my finances and preparing for the unexpected. I’m eating healthier and cooking more. I’m enjoying cooking, not just baking. I’m cherishing every minute I am blessed to share with my dog. I’m cherishing moments with my parents and conversations with my grandmother. I’m jogging and enjoying it? Getting up early in the morning to jog and enjoying it? Who is this person? I think I like her.

So I shaved my hair a few days ago and I felt like all this pressure and stuff was gone and that I could do anything. I do have to figure out what I truely want though and try not to make the mistakes I did in the past. I’m trying to ignore those boundaries that I’ve created for myself. It’s tough but I think it’s possible. All that from getting a buzz cut. Sweet!

Wow when I found this I was so excited because you basically took 90% of my 43things and compressed them into one nice sentence. Seriously thanks

This goal is superb. Each and everyday be a fearless warrior. Allowing what ever obstacle that comes my way to move it to the side and continue my journey. The creative being God intended me to be live it to the fullest. And always remember I am closer than I think!

i’ve decided the first step to achieving this goal is to purge everything out of my life i no longer need, including people. i am going to spend the month of march going through everything i own and i am determined to get rid of at least one third of it(except books of course). i must get rid of the old to make room for the new.