Not be so sensitive

But I am very sensitive. The only problem I have is that I have a horrible temper, and if I stop being sensitive, I don’t want to turn out to be an ITCH all the time instead of most of the time lol!

A person that i used to consider a friend. Has jumped from best buddy to best buddy for many years. once im not his best buddy anymore he constantly ignores and well doesn’t treat me very well. Now usually this wasn’t that bad but it has gotten worse every single time. This year he is the coolest guy in the class and everybody in the class thinks he is just the best and so funny. Every thing he uses for his funny remarks is a constant stab at a select few in the class. and unfortunatley now i am one of those select few. I’ve considered and tried sticking up for myself but everybody always agrees with him and i am always the one blamed and wrong. Ive tried to give up sticking for myself because no matter how hard i try i just dig a deeper hole in which to get out of. Some of the other people in my class do not care when this happens to them or at least they don’t show it. I recognize that i am too sensitive and i hope this will help in letting what he and others do not get to me

Thx alot for reading
I’d be open for any advice

I thought I would’ve outgrown this by now, but alas here I am…Still the sensitive ‘one’...

i get annoyed when ian doesn’t reply to what i’m saying but like he said, i’m always talking! :) i have to stop calling him on things, either he’ll do it on his own, or he won’t do it! end of story! he’s grown and he knows how to treat a woman!

i got hurt because ian told me that he took my picture off his cellphone screensaver. that put me in a bad mood and made me sad and annoyed all morning. plus, it put a wall between us which shouldn’t have been there. he’s a grown man and if he doesn’t want my picture in his phone, that’s his choice. he’s no less with me because he doesn’t want to see my face everytime he touches his phone.

it isn’t being sensitive in general that i have an issue with, its the way in which being sensitive affects certain parts of my life. i don’t have an issue with being sensitive in terms of wanting to help others and caring for others and feeling the pain of others but i do have an issue with being overly sensitive about what peopel are doing or saying about or to me. i think this is related to my lack of self confidence right now. i think that as i get more confortable with who i am and what i’m about at this phase in my life, i’ll be better about who i present to the world and how i take and interpret what others say!

and i realized that i don’t want to be known as the one who can’t handle a joke or comment or misguided word. i’m strong and tough and want to be known as that. i don’t need people to take care of me so i have to just set mmy life up so that i’m able to care for myself and be strong in who i am!

i’ve come to the conclusion that i like being sensitive but at the same time, must determine valuable sensitivity from harmful types. my sister is here and we’ve determined that we are both sensitive and she reminded me that being insensitive or losing the element of sensitive in my character isn’t something that i want. therefore, i will try and hone in on which things i wish to be sensitive about, and while i need not be.

i think the main thing for me is reading into the message behind the comments (verbal or non verbal) received from people.

that will be my goal. if i can identify when i’m reading, i’ll be on the road to trying to sort out the hidden reasons i’m doing this.

i’ve been told by two people (one i hate and one i love) who’ve both said that they refuse to ‘censor themselves around me’ because i’m so sensitive. i also know that because of things that have happened because of cp and mg, i’m really much more insecure and sensitive than i used to be and i want to change it!

not sure how!

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