carahmello my life is changing
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carahmello my life is changing
i cant change this about myself…its a personality trait. i can try to be more confident, and try to brush things off a little quicker or easier…but as far as sensitivity goes…i cant change it…and now that i think about it…i dont know if i want to!
I’m sensitive about everything. EVERYTHING. It’s ridiculous. I need to stop. asap
carahmello my life is changing
my boss said something to me at work yesterday….it was just something that she didnt want me to do next time…it wasnt really scolding me…i just didnt know…and now i do…but i felt sooooooooo bad, and for like the rest of the day i felt guilty, bad, and that i did something wrong and i couldnt shake it. i thought she was mad at me, and she regretted hiring me. then somone said something to me on here…ONLINE…and i took it really personally…i really need to work on this….
im super sensitive about my body and what others say about me. my family would always tell me to stop taking everything so personally and being so sensitive. but i cant help it. recently iv been getting mad or sad from small things that i know i shouldnt care about but i cant help it. im still working on this but i feel like i cant change it.
Worth doing!
When I was a little kid, I was sooooooo sensitive. When my sister would say something mean to me, I’d cry. If my siblings were messing around and pretending to punch me or something, I’d throw a tantrum. If someone teased me at school, I’d cry and tell the teacher. I’d even cry when the fire alarm rang! I guess as I got older I developed a very tough exterior and put up a lot of defenses so that nothing fazed me anymore, I can even poke fun at people frequently and get poked back and it doesn’t bother me at all, in fact, I think it’s funny. However, I still have a problem. I want to be a singer, but I’m very sensitive to criticism aimed at my talents…like, whenever I get a voice lesson and my teacher or someone tells me I need to fix something and they make me keep singing, I start crying. And then if I sing a sad song, I cry more. Today I was working on a song and my mom (She can be a good vocal coach) told me to sing louder or something, and I started getting frustrated, and before I knew it, I started crying.
The same thing happened when I used to ride horses. I was working on doing something and my teacher, who usually barked commands at me, was doing it more than usual, and I started crying. I felt like such a whimp.
HOW THE HELL CAN I STOP DOING THIS?!
And I don’t want to stop singing. :D