strengthen, reestablish, and nurture my existing friendships

Paul has a first (bachelors) degree in art and masters degree in IT. He’s sort of a modern Leonardo. He called me at lunchtime today and we are arranging a meal with some of the old gang on friday. He is even picking me up from the house as I don’t have a car. I am apprehensive about this meal as I ignored the phone messages of the old gang for the past year, ever since I left my first company. I got embarrassed and de-motivated about finding a job and subsequently am temping on and off. More off than on. They still want to see if I am coming though – so I said yes!

Master Paul called me today on my mobile phone but I missed him. Who is he you might ask and why is he significant? Well he truly is a master – of being himself. He is an all round nice guy. If I won a 100 millions dollars he would get 10% because he doesn’e want or expect anything in return for his help, support, advice and gentle cajoling to do what I ought to do. Because he knows so many people and spreads himself very thinly, I don’t get to see or even get in contact with him that much these days.

However as he has tried to contact me, it must be important. I try to get hold of him this evening.

Need to look up these people and let them know I’m still around!

i talked to my friends finally after wat seemed like an eternity.i guess it’s harder than you think.i waited patiently but nothing cud be done unless i try and do something about my friendships in the past. but now that i think of it..i need friends..it feels good that im talking to them more.

I would like to strengthen my relationship with one of my friends in the trombone section, Abby. I don’t think it’ll be too hard. Some trombone hangouts should do the trick and band camp too.

...contacted a German friend of mine in over 16 months. It’s her birthday today. It’s the evening over there right now, so I thought I’d just flick her a quick email to wish her well.

I’ve been quite a slack friend of hers, and I’d really love to attempt to reestablish that relationship. Hope she gets back to me.

my best foot on this. I am closing this thread. I believe my friendships will only get stronger.

Attempting to nurture my relationship with Nick, and realize that no matter how much I admire him, that he respects me as an equal, and I plan on proving to him through kindness, how much he is beginning to mean to me, as a Big Brother I’ve never had.

And to Andrew, who has held me up when there was no one else. I believe our friendship has strengthened ten-fold the past two months.

I don’t understand people. When I try to figure out people I just mess up more. When I try to be nice everyone else is mean. When I try to be mean everyone else is STILL mean but they’re also hurt and make me feel bad all over again.
I mess up around guys, I mess up around girls, my cat doesn’t even like me.

So, since my existing friendships consist of me watching a movie while my friends sit next to their girlfriends and boyfriends and then stand around awkwardly while they all bullshit, I’m just giving up.

That’s it.

I must establish a LIST of people that are true friends that need this nurturement and continuation.
Are they just fly by night friends?!
Which are worth keeping around…positive influencial people.
Try to stay away from negative pushy condescending individuals.