I think i’ve done this as much as i can. I can understand where they came from with their actions, as weak and selfish as they were. I don’t really feel anger toward them anymore, it’s more of a i feel sorry for them for wasting their lives. I could’ve been a better person at this point in my life but i don’t really hate who i’ve become either. I have much to work on but none of it has anything to do with them anymore since their time influencing me has past long ago. We’ll never be “close” but in our own strange ways we’ll care and always be there for each other in some way, so i keep them in my life at a distance. 10 months ago
I don’t know where to begin with this. I feel angry at them for never being there for me, for them putting themselves and others before their children. I would have had a better life if they just put a small amount of effort into me. I view them as children the only thing i seemed to learn from them was how not to be. I’ll never be close to them but i want to get over this hate i feel for them…This will take some time… 13 months ago
Always worth doing!! It releases a huge load of off your shoulders. 5 years ago
Sweetie,
First of all let me tell you I love you very much .. more than you’ll ever know.
I know plans change. I understand all that. I guess I was just upset cause I was so excited to see you , and you seemed to not even care if you saw me. Do you even know how much I miss you everyday ? I understand you have your own life on the mountain and I am every proud of you for that. You haven’t had the easiest life. And of course kids don’t come with instructions . so I know I’m not the mother of the year.
I guess what I want to say is.. I love you and am proud of you. I miss you every day.
luy ya
mom
ps I do hope to see you soon. 6 years ago
I got an email from m mother today
she’s confused and upset tat i didn;t get to stay longer when I
last visited durring the first week in January.
Originally I had planned to stay the whole month, because I was supposed to be off work the whole time.
She was very unpset
I had a nightmare about it
I hope things get better
could use a hug! 6 years ago
It is easy for me to forgive when I can understand, but when I cannot wrap my mind around someone’s actions, when I cannot reason my way through their behavior, I find I am stuck. I thought I forgave them along time ago. Or rather I accepted their abuse and blamed myself for their mistakes. But what I realize now is that I have only been excusing their behavior, that is I bit my lip and directed my anger inward; I never forgave I just redirected my pain. I see now that forgiving them has been more about accepting myself as I am, innocent in all of this. 6 years ago
I don’t want to be the victim anymore. I want to get over all of it. 6 years ago
this is the hardest thing to do. it’s so hard to hate the person you love. 6 years ago
I’m currently in therapy working on this. Had a breakthru with my dad two wks ago – he cried. So did I but seeing him break down was a lil scary. There are too many issues. Stuff is slowly making progress tho – even if he doesn’t grow I know I will – and getting over all that shit is only going to make my life better. 6 years ago
