stop binging

i’m a binge eater and would love to stop it!! i do so well threw the week, hardly eating anything! then on my days off from work i just binge! any tips to help me anyone? am so sick ov feeling shitty n fat n ugly!! x

Binge eating is one of those things that always has stopped me fulfulling my ambitions and kept me hiding away from people for years. I cannot eat ‘bad’ food without binging on them. With me I’m either restricting to the point of semi-starvation or eating all the wrong foods to the point when I’m actually scared that I’ll rip my stomach apart. It’s not so much eating for pleasure, it’s more eating to punish myself. It doesn’t make sense at all.
I know that I need to lose weight but all I tend to do nowadays is go out to buy a whole load of junk food and then force it down me quickly through the day with intervals of a few hours to see if I could stuff it down me later.
I had been restricting (eating very very less – started at 300 calories but then went down to about 40-70 calories a day towards the end) and exercising as well – burning more then I consumed. I’d been restricting for about 5 1/2 months and lost 45 pounds. I was almkost feeling good about myself again but then last wednesday something happened. Because I was getting even strangers telling me I was ‘skinny’ and some telling me I looked ill – I got really emotional about the ‘ill’ part. I felt like I was killing myself and was unable to sleep and constantly in pain from lack of food. So I began to eat. First few days were unbarable as I was in so much pain from eating processed food and a lot more food then usual. I didn’t have healthy food anymore but suddenly began to eat things like burgers and cookies. Although I couldn’t fit in much food on those first few days, I stuffed as much as would go down. I had extremely bad stomach pains but I continued eating.
Now over a week later and I still am eating badly. I have gained about 23lbs in about 1 1/2 weeks. I have swollen feet and a swollen stomach and feel awful about all the weight gain but I still eat to the point of being in extreme pain. It needs to stop I know as every day I’m feeling sick and in pain. I want the food to taste nice like it used to when I was a kid but it no longer does. Everything tasted the same really. I always have a bad taste in my mouth no matter what I eat. I’ve wasted so much money in this time on food, I look awful and feel like all that hard work of previous months is lost now anyway. This has to stop! I feel depressed about so many things but things were really on the up for me. I don’t know why I had to ruin everything.I know I should lose weight the ‘proper’ way. I cannot stop restricting for months and then ruining it by binging for a few weeks – sometimes just a few days with very quick weight gain. I wish I could just be in the middle but with me it’s all of nothing.

I do great during the day, but then at night I crazy binge on anything I can find, I’ve gained like 6 lbs in the past couple months, though I dont look like it, but I know I will soon start to. I think i have Binge Eating Disorder and I need serious help. But I will keep trying.

M

when u feel like man why can’t u just stop? god, i’m there, i’ve lost 20 pounds by stopping my binging to about 2-3 times a week, no if only i could stop it all together, i really want to stop, i’ve even taken up smoking so i can smoke instead of eat, but i live with my parents and they don’t allow that, so when i usually binge, which is at night, i cant smoke instead cause thats not allowed…. god i just need to lose about 10-15 more pounds and i’m at my goal weight i’m hoping this can help me, talking to other people that are trying to get through it too so i’ll be resorting to this page a lot and write down day by day i hope thats ok haha

This is my first post…ever. It freaks me out that I have lost so much control. I went to bed last night, after a full day of binging…and told myself tomorrow I stop binging, forever. I went to bed disgusted and in pain from the amount of food I had eaten all day. I woke up this morning and started the disgusting habit of binging again. I don’t know how much more I can take of this.

Want to hear the worst part of this all? I am studying to be a nutritionist so I can counsel people who suffer from eating disorders. But I can’t even help myself. My friends all think Im narotic about eating healthy…and thats because they don’t know how I binge when I am alone. I’m not fat, but in my mind I am overweight and am therefore unhappy with my overall appearance. I put on a front and make everyone believe I am strong and in control.

I need to stop this binging. I am hurting so bad and need the support of others that are feeling what I am feeling. I think I know how to stop this cycle but I don’t. I cry when nobody is looking, and I can’t pretend to be strong anymore. These support websites are all new to me, but I look forward to the support from others.

so i weighed myself sunday, 139. Okay my normal wieght is about 135. So the past four days ive been eatting healthy, running, working out. Today i weighed myself and it said 142. i almost starting crying. how could this be. idk but i had a little binge, not like how i use to be but then i stopped myself. so im not giving up but i am dissapointed. i wish could be comfortble with my wieght and eatting habits.

I’ve been to this site before, but never felt the need to join until I saw this topic. I’ve been having such a bad problem with this lately and it seriously needs to stop. Here’s my story:
I was a normal, active kid until about age 10, when I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. This caused me to gain weight and lose energy. I was teased at school for being the chubby girl even though I was only about 10 pounds overweight at that time. I turned to food at home to ease the pain, not bingeing but just overeating most of the time.
At twelve, I began to eat healthier and exercise. I became healthy again and losing weight. I was so happy to be losing all this weight that I began to get compulsive. I’d over-exercise and start eating less and less. At age fourteen, I was eating about 150 calories a day and exercising pretty much the rest of the day because I was home schooled and had the time. I ended up being hospitalized for anorexia. When I was released, I had a good metabolism again and discovered that I could eat almost as much as I wanted and not gain weight. In fact, I lost weight after being released and yet I was eating fast food almost every single night. Of course, this didn’t las forever. I’d order a piece of chocolate cake every night and it caught up with me. I began slowly gaining weight and this freaked me out. Thus, I began restricting calories again. Little did I know that this could cause binge eating. I would fast for days and then end up bingeing. I would then try to compensate by fasting even more, which lead to more binges, etc. I was soon hospitalized a second time.

After the next time of being released from the hospital, I was no longer restricting or fasting, but I couldn’t stop the binges. At sixteen, I regained normalcy due to moving to my grandparent’s house who hated it when I ate up their food. It was embarrassing to wake up to my grandmother holding up an empty bag of cheetos and asking me what was wrong with me. I moved in with a friend of mine later that year however, and I lost even more weight because my mind was always on partying and not on food. Still at sixteen, I moved in with my mom. I was used to eating whatever I wanted at my friend’s house and not gaining weight because in reality I wasn’t even eating that much. When I did the same at home, I gained a ton of weight. This was discouraging and triggered my anorexic thoughts. I began restricting again about 3 months ago and have lost a lot of weight. As if this wasn’t unhealthy enough, I began to binge about 3 weeks ago and it has gotten worse and worse. I fast, binge, fast, binge. I’m not fat, but I know that since I’ve already messed up my metabolism in these three months of restricting, I’m holding on to EVERY calorie!

I’ve binged for the past three nights straight. I keep telling myself that “Tomorrow” will be the day it all stops. I do well all day until night time when I binge my brains out. It’s so hard not to purge! But that’s one more problem that I really don’t need.

Just about an hour ago I got finished eating 3 100 calorie packs, a fiber one bar, chicken, smoked ham and cream cheese, peanut butter, animal crackers, and a half of a bagel. I’m still grossly stuffed.

I’ve read online that “Just letting yourself eat whatever you want and not having any food be off-limits” will help me to stop bingeing, but I can’t do that! I’d just gain a lot of weight and spiral further into my eating disorder, causing even MORE binges!

I hate this! Why do I have to have such a bad relationship with food? Too much or too little, I can never just be normal and healthy! But the first step is to stop these binges. Then I’ll work on eating healthier. I can’t check myself into the hospital again because I have no insurance. I’ll just try to post a lot on here and be accountable for every binge, or binge-free day. I hope this helps! I hate myself so much right now.

Sorry for the loooong post, but I’m just very anxious right now. It’s only an hour after my binge and I’m very upset.

I just binged, and I feel disgusting! I’ve finally decided to STOP (for good) Does anyone have any tips?

has anyone ever overcomet his horrible problem? I used to be annorexic but now I cant stop eating…keep gaining weight. :(

Haven’t binged in 10 days now.

:)