get over my fear of doctors

This is the strangest fear you’ve ever heard of. Actually, I am not among those who pass out at the sight of a needle (in fact, I regularly go and donate blood). Also, I succeed at convincing myself that sometimes it’s just better to go and see a doctor. But with your heart racing and pumping and your blood pressure up so that he looks as you like you’re really ill (which I’m definitely not), it’s a horrible experience every time, even starting the day before. Plus, I think them knowing how I “really” feel makes it difficult to apply my strategy of acting normal at the premiere (like in public speaking, university exams…) and being normal the second…

I’m trying to work up the courage right now to go to the doctor. Lets see if I can get myself there before the summer’s over.