marezydotes is totally reworking her list.
I’ve spent too long working at jobs that don’t require any real potential on my part. What’s the point if I don’t contribute in some meaningful way? I may be good at what I do, but these abstract ‘behind the scenes’ jobs aren’t fulfilling to me, and though they have to be done…they feel pointless and unrewarding. I make a lot of money now, but I hate it – the best job I ever had was waiting tables. It was engaging and I felt a part of something. I went home with the cash in my pocket that I had worked hard to earn that day and I was happy to make my customers happy.
To the point, I want to put my creativity to good use. As the years go by, I’ve become more aware of my compassion and a pull to do something that will impact the world in a positive way, whether it be human or environmental (are the two seperate?)
If any of my other goals come into play, I’ll hopefully be able to make something of this. I need to start fresh and focus on what’s important in my life…the distractions have been all encompassing and they need to be eliminated. Then, I’ll find myself again.
