confidence

Yesterday this guy who I had messed around with before is no longer attracted to me. I get a bad vibe from him and I feel that he is 100% unattracted to me which is cool, but I don’t think he likes me. He also thinks its wierd that I dance at club. That really pisses me off. OMGG I’m so mad and don’t feel too good about myself. Why is my life going like this. My pride has been hurt!!!!

I want to be able to feel beautiful, and not let anyone put me down because its not fair to myself and weak of me to let words effect me. I know people can’t make me happy and I am the only one who can make myself happy. I know I am a beautiful, smart, good hearted person. I am capable of anything I just need to believe in myself. There are things i need to work on but I will improve on them. I should believe that I am the best.

I am getting better at speaking about my beliefs. But there are still times when I hide behind silence.
I need to pay more attention to becoming a better communicator.

I have a major problem in this area, I can’t seem to stick with my choices. I always doubt myself. Is it right? What if it goes wrong? Would it work? the list goes on. Anybody experienced a problem in this area. I am going to try and stop doubting myself and my choices.

systematically eradicate things that erode my confidence.

work:
print job profiles and highlight the things I can do and the things that scare me. Improve upon the things that scare me.
Journal about the things that scare me.

relationships:
address the reasons I can’t have a relationship. poor body image, haven’t had one before, social skills underdeveloped, good ones taken, not for me, i’m not mature, i’m not grounded enough.

money:
keep money in my wallet, stick to my budget maybe, affirmations
journal about

If I had to choose money over confidence I’d say confidence still has the best ROI that money can’t buy.

Plan on doing it again

Yes ,I find Confidence ,confidence is becoming yourself,is not dispaly at another eyed

I want to be more confident…

^{_^; I think it would make me more attractive that way.
For the past 10 years, I’ve tried to hid myself in anyway possible from the public eye. I can’t stop thinking people are judging me as I stand there near them.
But I guess I’d have to work on that to become that more attractive person I wanted to be}_^>

So then, yosh!
So it’s ok to wear sleeveless things eventhough I am chubby…right?

And that, we wore tank tops outside for the first time in so many years. ^_: eheh