I’m rearranging my schedule so that I can say yes! I can take more hours/do more work for you at my one library job, where my poor director is on bed rest (probably until she has her child). Geez! But yes! I want to learn to do more stuffs and yes! get more experience and yes! have more hours and so I’m working on that. Also I went to my friend’s house and had a yummy dinner and a great time laughing hilariously with 5 guy friends (5 guys and one girl – and they happily did all the cooking and the dishes. Gotta love em!!) so in the end, though it wasn’t originally at all what I wanted, it was indeed what I needed. And I did have fun! And I want to say yes, I’ll come to your party! more and yes! I’ll have dinner with you and I’m working on that too. I usually do end up having a good time even when I’m really tired or cranky from work and i think I won’t. I’m working on it, really I am :) 4 months ago
But of course, time and job constraints are constantly in the way. Maybe now that my mom is home, I won’t have to worry about the dogs, and maybe I can go out more often? I don’t mind working a lot, and the hours are steady, but it’s hard to meet up with others and be awake/social/not have to rush off to bed/work. Maybe I should just ask off for more days? I used to have it that I didn’t work anywhere one day a week…but I can’t afford that now. Maybe later? I just don’t know. At least I’m trying, I really am!! 4 months ago
This has been really hard lately, what with 3 jobs and a random schedule. However, I’m hoping that now, with more friends in the area, I’ll be able to hang out with people more often, or at least go shopping together! I miss having girl friends lol 8 months ago
I have always lived in the moment. But eversince I moved to a different country and I’m out of my comfort zone, I just want to stay at home most of the time. I would rather spend hours and hours in front of the computer instead of going out and exploring the city. Now that I’ve graduated and have more time in my hands, I feel like an anti-social hippie. Summer is ending and I haven’t even gone to the beach. Another reason that I’ve been holding back on life is because my boyfriend is not here yet.. sigh. I’ve been looking forward for us being together but unfortunately, his visa has not been approved yet. I feel like I don’t want to experience new things without him around. I know that life must go on and I have to live my life too but I feel that if I enjoy too much, something bad might happen.. :( 20 months ago
