make a move

Ok, well I think that is over… at least I made a move before it ended.

So I finally kissed her. Aside from a drunken game of spin the bottle in college, this was my first real kiss. I’m 24 now, so it took me quite awhile. I have a history of being fairly picky when it comes to liking girls, which is part of the reason why I’ve never really dated anyone until now.

It was not exactly what I expected, I just kind of went on auto-pilot and then it was over and I was in a bit of a daze. It happened to be a goodnight kiss.

I wouldn’t say it was the greatest kiss ever (I really had no idea what I was doing) but I’m definitely glad I did it. It really didn’t seem to be as big of a deal as I thought it would. I’m thinking “I should have done this years ago!”. . . but I needed it to be a girl I really liked.

Once I started putting my arm around her and breaking the contact barrier, this became a lot easier. I’m sure this is old news to most people, but I’ve come upon the knowledge slowly.

Whatever happens, I’m just glad I made a move and maybe now I won’t have to worry about being stuck in the “friend-zone”.

Well, I gave him a stupid letter, and then… nothing…. which is worse than a “I hate you” or “ugh…”.... I need some sort of conclusion… not a quick “the end”...
I don’t expect for him to come a fucking marry me, but I think I deserve some sort of an acknowledgment.

I only have around twenty days to make a move on this guy I like… I mailed him (yes, I know that’s weird… I didn’t have his email address) this letter, and I really need him to see me and recognize my existance… I highly doubt he even knows my name…
What if I do tell him? What then? I’m leaving this school…

someone made a move on me… does that count?

more a less.. No.. but not exactly a no..

I asked him how he was doing after asking him for coffee and he said.. “busy” blushed profusely..and ran into his office.

he still talks to me. Is very nice to me.. chivarlous almost.

damn him for being so cute.. and nice..and funny.

Interesting thou.. a picture i liked brought me to this forum..

i would ask him again and again if i could get a straight answer.

I still flirt shamelessly with him.

school’s over. he’s going to italy. and although we’ll be forty-five minutes apart while we’re both at school, it is unlikely we’ll ever meet up (baltimore is not convenient to pass through on the way home and chestertown is a hole-in-the-wall). besides, i’m pretty much over him. too bad.

this past weekend, and NOTHING! Then again, I don’t think he saw me. Or was expecting to see me.

Sigh, he got cuter. I’m gonna have to do something, whether it’s make the move to get him or make the move to let it go.

We are out of school and I thought maybe it would be easier because I wouldn’t have to see him and it wouldn’t be awkward if he didn’t feel the same way.

But now I talk to him online. And I like to talk to him online. Not because I have a crush on him, but because he is a good conversationalist, he’s funny, he makes me feel better (sure these are all reasons I like him so much, but still). And if I told him how I feel? And it got awkward? I would lose those conversations and that would be terrible.

So I don’t know what is worse. I don’t know what I want to do.

Me & U. It’s sexy, the beat is awesome, and it reminds me exactly what I need to do. And gives me a little bit more courage each time I listen to it. So “I think I wanna make a move.” I really hope he likes it.