drink

But not until another night. :) One glass of white wine and I’m buzzed out of my mind.

Nevertheless, I think I’m going to mark this goal complete now. I seem to have confidence that I can enjoy A single drink (or maybe even two) as long as I’m not experiencing depressive symptomatology. It is nice to be able to enjoy a bit.

I hadn’t eaten much for quite a few days and felt pretty smashed afterward but it was the giggling, giddy sort of smashed, and a glass of water afterward had me functional again. (Yeah, one glass of wine did that. I’m a lightweight to the ultimate degree.)

but you know, being able to enjoy one drink is helpful socially. I’m a little fragile emotionally thanks to this infernal PTSD so I usually don’t drink at all. But tonight I went to a show that had a two-drink minimum, enjoyed both of my drinks, and didn’t get the least bit hammered or depressed.

In fact while I was there I met up with an old friend by chance – I call her the “White Russian” because that’s her drink of choice and that kind of humor always gets her laughing, but she is actually a human being – and it was so utterly delicious to see her again, my mood actually improved significantly for the first time in weeks. I spent some of the best days of my life around her…she’s much too young for me in terms of dating but she’s a wonderful soul and completely adorable – the kind of person I would’ve loved to have as a daughter if I’d ever had kids. We worked in the same school a few years back and had some wonderful conversations, and saw some really nice things happen where we were working together too. We worked with low-income, at-risk students a lot so every time somebody graduated it was like a miracle.

Anyway, the fact that she still enjoys sharing a table with an old coot like me even though we’ve both gone on to bigger and better things vocationally and she doesn’t have to hang around me at all unless she wants to was a very sweet surprise…and the fact that it happened because I didn’t shy away from an event I wanted to see just because it was at a bar tells me that maybe I can carefully indulge to a limited degree once in a while without hurting myself.

...beer and vodka

Definitely better things to do with my time! Glad those younger crazy years are behind me!

water is very important.

Party. Drink with your friends. Get drunk. You’ll be a new man/woman I gurantee you that! ;) Just don’t take advantage of it….

don’t do it. I just puked my brains out the other day. NOT FUN. never again. in moderation.

i like to drink

..a martini glass for nothing, haha.