I did this, and took it down after awhile. It’s not for me. When I wrote this goal, I was in this phase where I was rather gutsy but now I’ve moved to being more private and don’t feel like sharing a video of me talking with the whole world. (I hesitate to do this with writing sometimes.) The intention of this goal was to build confidence and speaking skills so I would get less anxious in my day-to-day interactions and class presentations and other speaking situations. It did have a good intention but since this goal was written, my perspective has changed. I’ve actually become more comfortable and confident among friends and some public speaking situations. I think this comes from actually self confidence and confidence in the ideas I have. I’ve been in a totally different environment too and even though it’s a new environment, I was extremely lucky to find myself in a very friendly and accepting place that has contributed to my growth in confidence. Now I feel more comfortable speaking. I just don’t like the idea of posting myself talking online and I don’t feel I need to do this anymore. One reason why this goal was not quite right is because I’m an introvert and a fairly private person and it’s perfectly reasonable not to want to post youtube stuff online; many extroverts consider this gutsy!
Even though I do have an introverted energy, part of me does want to share my ideas and visions with the world and the urge to do this is often strong and is still strong today. I find that it works better for me to share these ideas in other ways or with small groups or individuals. I don’t want a huge internet audience right now. And I think my ideas work like ripples: starting on and individual level and expanding outwards to larger group. My role is inspiring or transforming an individual person or a smaller group and really touch them on a personal level. Inevitably, it will radiate outwards. I think with this goal I was trying to work backwards; by touching on the universals/a larger audience first and hoping to transform/touch a handful of individuals through that. Though this works well for other people, the other way works better for me.
