think a little less, feel a little more

I stopped thinking and followed my heart. Tough, but it’ll pay off. :)

There is so much in me.

Yet I don’t know what it is right now.
It is new.

And what is interesting is that I don’t even really feel like trying to figure it out. I am just content to let it be, and see what it means, in time.

And because I am still very much in touch with how completely unnatural that is for myself, it is quite strange to realize.

(That said, I do have an idea… which stems naturally from that afterwork conversation that I had, rather than soul-search over-analyzing. I think I may be feeling the slightest bit safer in leaving my ‘head’.)

But it is a restful, peaceful tired.

Not something I know.

I wonder what it means. But not really. It doesn’t really matter.

It feels good.

(And for me to say even that much is quite an accomplishment… to say that something feels good…).

have a different access to my feelings while not feeling so great physically. I wonder why. Forced slow-down?

I think maybe I should take advantage (that sounds crazy… take advantage of not feeling well?) and do some writing.

I go too much by thinking.
For other stuff, I go too much by feeling.

Mostly, I believe, too much head in relationship to others.
And too much heart in dealing with myself (too little discipline at times and no thought-censoring to counter-act ‘feeling’ inadequate…).

But, overall, too much thinking. I mean, I just have to look at what I write/how I write, to see that…

that i might think a little less and feel a little more. i know i do have tend to think things through ver thouroughly but it’s part of who i am. By listing this goal i don’t think i want to change who i am but i just want to see if i can, to go with my instincts, what i feel, a little more.