commit to my education

Nows the time to prove myself.
saying that makes me scared also a bit stubborn.
I dont wanna/havta prove myself to anyone even if it does mean my whole life gets wrecked in the process.
But yes im going to do it but not for my mum if she has an inch of invlovment then im going to cringe.
I dont know why and im not going to get into it but i hate it when people expect things of me and want me to do things.

man once when i loved green day sigh...
this song meant alot to me, i thought wow its so much like me! yet to find out that billie( the writer) was thinking the same thing! about the character holden caulifield in J.D salingers book a catcher in the rye (witch i am yet to read).
quote of the chorus:
“thats when i say; theres a boy who fogs his world and now he’s getting lazy, has no motivation and fustration makes him crazy, makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting, someone help him up or he is gunna end up quitin”

i seem to always fog the image of when im older and need a job lol, so i get lazy and don’t go to school, no motivation to go there, i make a plan to get back into school but never stick with it, and yeah i need help lol =]

I NEED TO COMMIT TO MY EDUCATION