overcome, or at least successfully manage, my bipolar disorder and all of its consequences...

why do i ever go off?

but for the better… i’m back on monotherapy, and i think it’s working well—i sense a lot of positive changes in my mood for the better…

my pdoc warns me that i’m going to mourn my loss of swings, especially the highs, and i think she’s right… but i don’t know… i think i’m ready to calm down and not let myself destroy my relationships and adversely impact my life by being alternatively depressed and irritable… it’s just better that way, i think…

anyway, continuing on…

I’ve on good behaviour for the last week… keeping everything together, being social, and getting everything done…

just to stay on keel now….

i hate trying to deal with persistent dips in my mood… the smallest things are becoming monumental tasks in day to day life, and i can manage to keep up with my peers—i actually, i don’t think that i can…

each little bump in the road somehow makes everything worse…

i wish i better at dealing with all of this….