be unforgettable

My Face book friend..wrote….”Playing WII with my mom and am trying to figure out how to play frisbee.”
I sat there, starring at that entry, for at least 20 minutes..
possibly 30..
My blonde mind…”Why would you need a frisbee in a World War II game?” Is there a new version of German soldier (sorry not meant to be a racial slur….i am old..before politically correctness) that I don’t know about?
then finally, the light bulb….WII, like X box, like Play Station…again why, just another reason why, old people, should not join Face Book…

I don’t think I’ll ever mean that much to anyone.

im tired of being that person that when you say my name evryone looks around and says who?
i dont even want people to remember me
i want them not to forget me
and maybe not EVERYONE…
cause I dont think its possible for you to leave an impact on every person but at least alot of people
im not even a very socializing person…sooo..what do i do?

And you, pulled me close to you several times that day, both you and I knowing, that you had such a short time before you had to board that plane,,,it was in that moment, no, that series of several moments..that I felt, for the first time “unforgettable”.....
And even though, you are not here, that we are a million miles apart tonight….I have held strong, to that feeling, alone in this darkness

I have marked off calanders….set goals too far away
it has been 50 days since I saw you..Jan 6
and I have marked feb 23 as day one..100 days till I see you again will be June 2nd…the rational me….thinks..this cannot be helped…the lonely me,closes her eyes, and remembers you..
I have tried countless times, to find a way to fill this night time void..I have bought books, rented DVD’s…and I have cast them all aside…and still I search for you…
At times, I wonder, why..

is judging from the pictures…of President Obama and First lady Michelle..those pictures, of their dance together, at the the ball, they see each other..as “unforgettable” to one another…..
I saw alot of memories, in their expression, that they shared with one another…maybe alot of other couples did as well
Maybe we, cannot not only rekindle a country, but maybe we can rekindle…our own relationships…

to my New Years Resolution…....to make good, what is not so good…...that my gift for doing so, is the time, we spend together…..
which is fleeting…..
And then there is the New Years Resolution time, the time, in which, your comfort seems miles away from me…...not only in the miles that seperate us…....
I told you I could withstand Hell, if I knew,in the end, I would find your comfort once every five weeks….
I underestimated hell…

forget about memorable, i want unforgettable.
i want to make an impression. a change. a time in someone’s life they’ll want to relive over and over again.

_{don’t forget me.}

...to be the person that starts a ripple

“Like water be gentle and strong. Gentle to follow the natural paths of the earth, but strong to rise up and reshape the world.”

when I look in your eyes…..
or feel you press your cheek against mine…..
feel your breath on the back of my neck…..
as you reach for my outstretched hand, kiss it lightly and holding it so gently next to your heart…
When you tell me, how you see me, through your eyes…..
when you say, nothing at all…....
When I try to seperate escape, from reality..and you tell me you understand, how that feels…
What we share, is unforgettable, to both of us
It, came, without warning, there were no fireworks, or butterflies….
There is just this gift, of the ease we share with one another..