be happy with life

I just want to learn to accept life how it is and not be so pesmistic. Sometimes I feel like my life is just so clustered and out of my control. So maybe soon I will be able to be happy with my life. =/

I think this is one that I will be working on my whole life. This is a goal that I have to choose to follow every morning I wake up.

Everything in my life seems to be getting better at the minute.

My dad is paying more attention to me, my bro and sis are being okay and things are sorted between me and my mom.

I would like to thank my best friend and my amazing boyfriend for sticking with me through everything!

xxxx

I have a great boyfriend and friends… I’m just not happy with life at the minute.

There has been a hell of a lot of arguing lately with my family and everything. It has been about my parents, the house, me, my brother and mainly my sister. I’m not blaming her for all of this, but I do feel it may be partly her fault.

I haven’t felt this low in ages. I dont like feeling like this. I get on well with my mum. I mean I love both my parents. I just wish my dad would pay more attention to me. I had to ask him four times the other day to pay attention to me and he still ignored me. I just feel invisible to him at the minute. I hate it.

We argued last night, my dad, my mum and I. My dad said he felt ganged up on. We argued about so much. I told him how I was feeling and he completely twisted what I was saying everytime. He made himself look like the poor guy who was always ganged up on.

I know I need to try and stay happy for everyone’s sake, but I’m so sick of having to wear a fake smile all the time. I have to everyday for college and family purpose. I don’t even want to come home anymore. And if my mum reads this she will moan that I stole her line there!!

There is a song by Pink that describes how I feel about our situation. It’s called Family Portrait.
There is another song as well that describes me. Two actually. They are both Avril Lavigne songs too. One is called “Take me Away” and the other is called “Losing Grip”. Losing Grip features some lines in it that I felt related to me. The first being “Right now I feel invisible to you, like I’m not real”, and the other is “You used to love me, you used to hug me; but that wasn’t the case. Everything isn’t okay”.

I do genuinly feel like shit at the minute. I need my boyfriend here, I can’t cope with this by myself. I know I’m not alone because I have all my friends, my family (when it is a nice enviroment) and my boyfriend; but I just feel like I’m alone in the world at the minute and I hate it.

Sometimes it can be tricky to be happy with life. With all the stuff going on around me it’s a little harder. I gotta get back into school so I can get a better job…

i feel disappoint all the time,i don’t know why i always feel this way,but today i see the hope,there are some spirition .The most excited thing is ,the spirition is from someone younger than me,i found that i was pessimistic before.now i can tell i find the way to ba happy—always be confident with your life and the things around you.

I wish i could just be happy with the way things are going and be happy for the people around me. But i find it hard to be happy for my friends when im not happy with myself. and im tired of being there for my friends always being there always listening to their problems and helping them out and never getting to vent myself…. i think maybe if i could just vent get pissed get mad and let it all go then maybe i could get over what ever it is that is making me so unhappy…...