Weigh 96 -114 pounds

I’m not sure how/why…I suppose I’ve been eatin significantly less. Then w/ regular dance classes & 3 cheer practices this week, I suppose that aided my loss. Also I have a crush…so yeah…I always lose when I’m crushing, cuz I spend most my time thinking about them instead of food. I was 130.1 on Wednesday, so I am concerned that I’ve lost 1.8 pounds in 2 days when I haven’t really done anything (in my opinion) to have caused this. I mean…I feel fine/healthy, so idk. I am considering not having the “break” this weekend, b/c Thursday is Thanksgiving & I’m sure I’ll have enough to eat then. But I guess we’ll see how i feel tomorrow morning.

Goal: Saturday, October 31st..129.2

That woman brings home a whole red velvet cake from the bakery..mind you, we’re the only two living here. I had a slice today..but I swere I will not touch that cake or any cake for the next month!! I will be eating healthy…game season is beginning, and I must prepare to look ridiculously awesome in my cheer uniform so then I may have the ballz to ask wutsherface out. see! I have a plan…

BTW: Kim Kardashian…fucken sexy whore..5’ 2.5”..114 pounds.

Eating chocolate to relieve my sorrows….OH Shyt!! I forgot again..okay no more! I forgot about the break outs…besides, it wasn’t helping me anyway. Instead of making me feel better…I just kept feeling more and more insecure as i ate it.

So I’ve had about 5 Caramel Chocolate Turtles, about 10 oreos (only the cream…throw away the outside), and 1 Chocolate chip Ahoy (forgot that I didn’t like those). OKay, so you now…when you eat like this, usually your count is a lil off. lol. So I wouldn’t hold these quantities to an exact measurement. But now i just looked in the mirror and I’m breaking out!! lol I totally forgot why I dont eat chocolate…because it makes me break out like crazy. lmfao. I totally forgot!! And its not just chocolate, fried foods also make me break out for whatever reason. So I think that’s hilarious. See, this is why I dont eat like that. I thought it was just for my health, but its also because of my skin! I can’t blv I forgot about that. It’s been so long since I’ve had chocolate….or fried foods. Well since I’ve already broken out, I guess I’ll have some fried chicken tonight. lol..j/k. I’m having Mexican. Oh-lay! :D

I suck Ass….

Current Weight: 130.7
Curent Height: 5’1.5” (apparently I’m not growing)

128

but here are my mesurements:

CHEST: 35”—> GOAL: ?
CALF: 13”—> GOAL: 12”
ABZ: 27.5—> GOAL: 24”
WAIST: 29.5—> GOAL: 25”
ARM (RIGHT BICEP): 11”—> GOAL: 9”
THIGH (RIGHT): 22”—> GOAL: 19”
KNEE (ABOVE RIGHT KNEE): 15”—> GOAL: 14”
HIPS: 36”—> GOAL: 34”

I’m assuming I weigh around 130 and I’m back to the goal of wanting to be 105, so thats 25 pounds. The doctor said that that number was fine, but I just needed to take my time with weight loss so I’m giving myself 3 months. From Oct 25 to jan 25 is actually 13 weeks, but I’m starting now so that i can get in the hang of things. Practice makes perfect! Once I start losing the weight and I feel comfortable at 110 or 115, then I’ll stop losing. But 105 is my ultimate goal. I’ve got my PAC to use the gym at school, my dad is giving me money for dance classes, and i’ve got loads of exercise DVDs/tapes. I know what to eat (loads of fruits & veggies, low-fat, lean protein, complex carbs) and how to eat (5-6 mini meals a day, stop eating 3hrs before bed), and I’ll give myself one day a week to eat what I want. I have an outline, I just need to sit down and make a plan. Planning out my meals everyday might not be the best thing to do, because I like to eat whatever feels right at the moment, and then work it out in my mind as I go along throughout the day. But exercise I can/will plan each week and I will measure/weigh myself once a week (even though the doctor suggested that I didn’t – lol). My goal is to exercise 6 days a week (6-7 hours), including as many (1-1/2 hr) dance classes as I can fit in, and to exercise in the mornings when possible (to burn fat).

So I got birth control…..The Nuvaring. Besides the other possible side effects, I’m more concerned about the possible weight gain. According to the scale I weight 128.6…not 125 like I had hoped but still its less that my 130.4 I weighed during June. Thats about two pounds…losing is better than gaining, especially with the way I’ve been eating these days. I can actually see the results. Honestly, my rolls (are what I thought to be rolls) are slowly diminishing.

So, when I got back from the hospital, they said I weighed 130 and that was about mid June. Now, coming home from a cruise with a buffet fit for a king and 24 hour pizza and icecream, I’ve gained about 2-3 pounds. And thats okay. I’m okay with it. I expected more. I didnt’ workout at the gym, but that was only one morning. I did the elyptical machine for an hour, and stretched for 15 minutes. Nice, but so very tiring. I could barely walk when I was done.