spiritually grow through Christ

I love how re-connecting with GOD is….easy. I keep forgetting that your acknowledgement of him is….simple. People are so complicated. We are resentful people. Selfish people. People who hold grudges. I have come to discover that GOD is not like that. I am have been consistently getting down on my knees and having not only prayer time with GOD….but conversations. Long conversations in which I say how I feel, give thanks and ask for guidance.

However, I would like for me do this throughout the day with GOD. I seem to only do it at night, but I want to consistently be thankful, appreciative and ask for guidance throughout my walks.

But I am proud of myself and thankful for Him to getting me this far. I’m growing and I’m really happy about it. Thank you God for focus.

Now this is one of those goals that doesn’t have a time line. I don’t think I will ever STOP growing through Christ. I mean…I don’t want to. But I want to be cognizant of my growth. A spiritual growth.

My life is realllly changing and I feel like I need God more than ever. Well, that’s a lie. LOL, I ALWAYS need GOD but with my transition to LA without my friends/family, I feel as if I really need this time to grow spiritually.

Especially with my mental battles in regards to religion. The older I get, the more I am realizing how corrupt “religion” is. And it really bothers me. Now, don’t get me wrong.

I thoroughly enjoy going to church.
I love fellowship, Bible lessons, prayer meetings, singing and the general idea of Christianity. But I have a problem with these ideas and notions that religion seem to plague people with.

The un-biblical do’s and don’ts. I mean, really.
People and their defined lines of religion. Catholicism and the Baptist and the Protestants….mannnn, whatever. All of that, I’m not down with. I identify with Baptist and like identifying with it, but I get furious when I feel like religion is taking a toll on my life.

So I figure….spiritually growing through Christ can’t go wrong. I am attentive while listening to other sermons being taught from the Bible, but I’m not getting caught up in super-religion. I refuse to.

And no…I don’t go around quoting the Bible every 2 seconds. And I don’t answer the phone saying, “Hello, God loves you…”

My relationship with Christ is a personal one. A private one. I have no problem telling people that I love the Lord, but at the same time, I amd not trying to be perceived as some “holier than thou” saint who does no wrong. I do do wrong. And the thing is 9x outta 10…I KNOW when I’m doing wrong. And sometimes I don’t care. Which is bad, but I’m being honest.

This is a tough goal….my entry alone may seem a bit convulted. I need to pray more. I don’t pray as much as I should. What is my problem? I live in an old convent. I work at a Catholic school…I’m surrounded by things and people to remind me to pray and I don’t. Not as often as I should, at least.

Lesson 1:
PRAYER