convince Andy that I am, in fact, the woman of his dreams and he cant live without me

Well i’d almost given up on this goal. not heard from andy in a while, then this week – breakthrough! He text me at the beginning of the week, just how you doing type message, and every day since. he’s single now, ok so he needs to be on his own for a little while, but at least theres no-one in the way now, and as soon as he had sorted out that part of his life he thought of me. he’s asked me to go out with him next week, and i’m going, cant say no to be honest, but who knows whats going to happen from here, hurrah!

I’ve not seen or heard from Andy in a couple of weeks now, I’m gutted. I know he felt really bad at what happened and is probably just keeping his distance for a while, but i miss him. I knew if ‘it’ happened that things would change, I’m just so weak when it comes to him, I couldnt say no, and I cant help but regret it immensly now.

and i realise how obsessed i sound, and how i may of made andy sound bad. he so isnt. he has never really done anything to lead me on, and is such a nice guy. if he wasnt such a nice guy he would of probably of told me to get lost by now, and my crush wouldnt be so prominant. i also think i’m lonely, if i wasnt so lonely i wouldnt think so highly of someone who doesnt have an interest in me. i think i need to get out more, to meet new people.
i actually went on a date the other week and didnt think so much of andy for a while (well a few hours!) anyway the guy who i went out came in the pub where i work on friday and introduced me to his girlfriend! i honesty couldnt believe it, funny how she never came up in conversation. Story of my life, i think i must have ‘use me’ tattood across my forehead (I have 3 tattoos but dont think thats one of them!)
I’m rambling now, but i got a great message off someone on here and just wanted to emphasise he is so not a bad guy, and i am so not blind, i realise this is probably a no complete goal, but its staying for a while!

i text a couple of times, nothing full on, just to see how he was, and no reply. Then, he didnt come into the bar on Tuesday. I was gutted, I really thought I’d blown it, then he text on Friday – huge relief!
Tuesdays a big presentation night in my bar for the poker league, and andy won so he has to come, and he’s took the day off the next day so he can have a drink, means he’ll be staying round here, not at mine, but i’ll get to spend a bit of time with him. At least then i’ll know how he is with me

but basically just said again that he felt really bad, but theres nothing he can do about it, and he still doesnt regret it. i’m trying so hard to leave him be. i’m not going to text him, or call him, i need to wait for him to contact me. its just hard when i dont know how he’s feeling. i think i was so foolish, but could never of turned him down

So Andy stayed with me last night. i dont know what to think,or how i feel about it. i cant help thinking it was a huge mistake. i wanted to so badly, but i was already crazy about him before this. i dont want to be a one night stand or a bit on the side, i want him!
he said to me this morning that he feels guilty, but doesnt regret a second of it, i just dont know, think i’ve confused things even more

I dont get some people, why would you want to stay with someone you dont 100% want to be with, surely its just going to make you both miserable. I know he is interested in me, i just dont get it. My friend says its because sometimes its easier to stay with what you know than to go onto something totally different. I’ll see him tomorrow anyway, she how he is with me then.

And he sent it to both of my phones so must of wanted to make sure i got it. I am so pleased, it was just a general how you doing type message but shows he was thinking of me!
A little bit about me and Andy – I’m not a kid, dont get me wrong, I’m a grown woman, with a HUGE schoolgirl type crush on this guy, and i cant help it.
I’ve said before he comes in the pub where i work on a Tuesday, and he used to stay at my friends every week so he didnt have to drive home, so we would all have a drink together. this one week he stayed at mine and it was the most amazine night of my life. dont get me wrong there was no funny business, well ok, maybe a little bit, but no ‘full on’ funny business, we just spent the whole night kissing and laughing and talking. So things were looking good, then i get a message a few days later saying that he doesnt want to lead me on, he really likes me, he wants to spend time with me, blah blah, but things are complicated. I recently found out that they are complicated because he has a long term girlfriend. absolutely devestated. Nothings happened since that night, just texts and phonecalls, sometimes he texts me and gets quite steamy, sometimes he talks to me like i’m a friend.
Trouble is i generally think he’s ‘my lobster’, I think he is the man for me, we have so much in common, i have never stayed up the whole night talking rubbish, about nothing, then gone straight to work with a smile on my face.
I’m also not the type to go after someone who is attached, but i really think there is something there, scrap that, i know there is, things are just ‘complicated!’ :(

Andy comes in the pub where i work every tuesday so last night was the first time i’ve seen him in a week. i’ve managed to avoid texting him all week, dont want to harrass him, and i have a habit of texting him when i’m drunk. so anyway, we had a good chat last night. The whole me and andy thing is a long story but i know theres something there. i figure if i stop contacting him all the time, he’s either going to forget me or think of me more. We’ll see, just have to go another week till i see him again

I know if you have to try and convince someone that your the woman for them, then your probably not, but I am! I know he’s interested, I know he wants to know me more, just need to keep working at it