But I have started going to the gym regularly. Ok so it’s only been a week, but still, I’m doing it! :p

I have decided that Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays shall be my gym days since I have the most time off on those days. I love the fact that Planet Fitness is open 24 hours 5 days a week. It’s so awesome.

I’m also hoping that this will help me with becoming more self confidant, mainly because not to many of my friends are able to go with me and I sometimes get nervous and panicky in social or public situations where I have to do things by myself. But I really want to take a vacation next year….alone. I mean what am I going to do? Drive halfway to Ohio and then back home because I got scared of being alone?

My first trip to PF was very nerve wracking. I cried in my car for like five minutes in my parking spot because nobody could go with me and then had to take another ten minutes to calm myself down and make sure that it didn’t look like I was crying, lol. But when I actually got on the treadmill and got into the groove I realized nobody was actually paying attention to me and it was all in my head, and it felt OK and I was able to do the curcuit and concentrate on my workout.

I still have to calm myself down before going inside for a bit, but I’m getting better at it AND I’m still going in by myself and working out for about an hour…45 minutes, give or take. So yay for me and screw you to my social anxieties! lol. 19 months ago

about a week ago since starting the whole no soda, fast food or sweets thing. Since January, I’ve lost 40 pounds. Woot! 21 months ago

Now I just need a pair of tennis shoes. My old ones are completely kaput so all I have is sandals. Oy vay. I have even more motivation to get fit and stay in shape now. I went camping with my Scouts last weekend and actually went on a hike with my girls. And I’m proud to say that I didn’t have to stop every five minutes, or hold them up, drag along all the way behind them. Also my back didn’t really hurt that bad like it used to afterwards.

Usually my back would get so painfully tight the skin would go numb. That would be after about I thin 20 minutes of hiking and walking.

My back did start to hurt towards the end but I stuck it out and sat down for a few minutes after we got back to camp and I was completely fine afterwards. Also the edema in my left leg went completely down. It was awesome. I was so happy that I finally didn’t have to keep telling the kids that I couldn’t hike with them and couldn’t do this with them or do that because I had a bad back.

I mean, they’re preteens and teens that I work with, so I sometimes don’t think they truly understood before that I physically couldn’t do things and thought I just didn’t want to do them. But now that I’m getting healthier I can! Soo happy!

Also this means I have no excuse as to why I can’t walk on a treadmill for atleast 10-15 minutes…or more! :D 23 months ago