Say "I love you" more often

I hate showing my feelings to someone verbally. It’s hard for me to say how I feel in front of someones face. Or, just usually I don’t really care about them and don’t say “i love you” at all. Problem is that I hate being corny.

I never let people know how I feel about them. In fact, the more I care about someone, the harder I try to pretend as if they mean nothing to me. I am trying to change this.

Five years ago, I was married to a man I loved immensely. We had dated for almost four months and each day we made sure to let the other know just how much they meant to us. You see prior to that, I had been married to an alcoholic and never knew whether he loved me or his alcohol more; and, his wife had been cheating on him before she passed away. Three days after I married this wonderful man, he had a heart attack. Two days later, I took him off life support so he could die peacefully. If he had not made the effort many times each day to let me know how much I mattered to him, he would have died leaving me wondering if the pain was worth it. As it was, he left me with a legacy of his love to take me on to the next relationship.

I’m sorry to say this, but I don’t like hearing it all the time. My husband says it to me about 40 times a day. I’m not kidding. It starts to sound like he doesn’t mean it, it’s just a reflex; something to say. He’ll walk by and throw out, “Love ya.” Then he’ll walk by again and say, “I love you.” And if I don’t say it back, every single time, he gets all huffy and stops, turns, looks at me, and says, “Hey. I. Love. You.”

Yes. I. Know.

AUGH!

i say ‘i love you’ to all of my nearest and dearest everytime i say goodbye even on the phone or in text. imagine of you never got the chance to say it again. it means alot in the long run and shows them you care

It’s not the right goal for right now. I’ve temporarily replaced this goal with “Learn to tell people I care,” because that’s the more pressing issue. I realized that it’s been literally years since I’ve said “I love you,” even to my parents or best friends. I just don’t say it. I actually don’t say anything regarding my feelings at all; I don’t tell people that I care about them, and I don’t hug them and I don’t even look them in the eye sometimes. Sometimes I look at someone I love and in my head I’m screaming, “I care about you so much!” but out loud I say nothing. I just get paralyzed. So starting with “I love you” was a little much. For now, I’ll work on letting people know, in whatever capacity, that I care. Perhaps after that I’ll come back to “I love you.”

But I am going to replace it with a goal that is more geared towards what I need to work on, and have been avoiding.

You can never hear it enough. Simple as that.

I’m getting rid of goals I don’t need.

It’s almost natural to it say now.