In exploring what’s stopping me from attaining my “dream career,” I am discovering:
1. That I have a lot of passions, but I haven’t developed really any of them.
2. That I am afraid of failure and success.
3. In regards to the first two, it’s like I’m stagnant.
Well, I’m tired of being stagnant. And I am tired of saying over and over again, “I don’t know.”
Newsflash: I still don’t know, but I’m not as afraid to explore what that is.
What I do know:
1. I love social justice. I love social entrepreneurism. I love social change. I’d love to be a catalyst for more of it.
2. I don’t like as much “social work.” Working one-on-one with people is a phenomenal experience, but it can be so hard to get anywhere with an individual. And as soon as you’re done with one, there are plenty more that need your assistance. And it’s almost like putting a band-aid on the real problem and then you go swimming….in a racing current. The band-aid’s never going to stick. The problem is still there. How can we stop the original problem?
3. Policy is where some of the real changes can happen. Outlining step-by-step what can be done differently. But that kind of work can be so dry and so tedious.
4. I’d love to combine the best aspects of both: social work & policy.
5. Youth have always been the future, and they need to be the focus. And yet, even in my ripe young age, I feel so disconnected from today’s youth. If anything I get along best with college students and recent graduates…
6. I’m interested in youth development, community development, program development. Making things work more efficiently, impact more people, and bringing about a slow revolution.
7. I think the above reasons are why I like Obama so much. I see his mind working in much the same mine does.
8. I would love to see a world where there is more neighborly welcome, where people give other people the benefit of the doubt, where creativity and innovation are always encouraged and never “stolen,” where literacy and information abound so that the solutions are readily available, and where people are not oppressed anymore. If I can imagine what that looks like, can’t we get there?
9. I would love to use my knowledge, power, privilege, and resources always to the best of my ability.
10. I would love to live my life without the fear of the possibilities, but always in awe of them while pursuing them.
And so, how is it that I move forward? Do I read up more on the subjects that fuel my fires? Do I start talking to more people? Do I jump into a graduate program that will increase my contacts and networks? Do I just start doing??
Let me just say that I’ve also figured out that I already do love what I do, without it necessarily being a “job.” I’m living life, I’m asking the hard questions, I’m loving the people around me, I’m happy. Now, if I can find the job that lights me up, that encourages my best creativity, that brings out my very best, instead of the dull, burdened shell of a person I had become where I last was.
And so I have to remember that I felt empowered quitting the job where I didn’t feel fully valued. I may feel totally unsure about what it is that’s coming my way next, but I’m so much closer articulating that to myself. I’m so much closer to doing exactly that which I love as mentioned in the previous 10 tenets. And I have to keep moving forward, not feeling afraid of what’s ahead or behind, but just be myself, loving every bit of what I’m doing. :)