forget my past

im learning now, crawling my ass out… but im trying.
to always see tomorow and never looking back.
trying to leave our ghost behind, and moving forward.

i hope ill make it till tomorrow :D

Too many things from the past have been bogging me down lately. I don’t quite know how to handle it. My sister is losing confidence in me. If I could just forget maybe things would be easier

My dad doesn’t give 2 shits about me. He told me over the phone that if I starved and started to live on the street he wouldn’t care and he forgets my birthday all the time. Then he blames it on me.

All the pain, lies, and abandonments. But my grandma, I’d never want to forget because I loved her with all my heart

sometimes I go into a shame-trance where I’m remembering all the bad things I’ve done. I stare into space and my jaw drops and it is quite staggering at times. I could be in a fantastic mood and have a shame-trance and then be in a shitty mood for the rest of the day.

My past is a long, long story.

How do you just erase a part of your life? A relationship of 6 years to be forgotten? I have ignored for 11 months but the reality is that I have not forgotten. I want to so I can be happier… So I can live my life looking forward to tomorrow and being sad about the past….

Regretting over things is very stupid but how do you not?

I lost my virginity and alot of people know,
they judge me, like now I’m a “different” person.

We make mistakes, but they can’t see.