be realistic about love

about online dating.
There’s the issue of comprising my integrity. I wonder how worth it this is just to not be alone.
On the other hand, I think maybe I am simply being realistic by going out of my comfort zone in dating. It is hard to have such narrow restrictions to who you date, and I felt like I could not be pro-active in anyway before. I feel like I actually have options now.

means giving up & settling for being unhappy & alone.

to expect to have some immediate attraction to someone?
Is physical attraction something that can grow, or does it just exist or not exist, and there isn’t much to be done one way or the other?
How much time should you give a person to see if an attraction grows?
What is a reasonable amount of time to spend with someone before you can safely say that you will likely never have any sexual attraction to them?
If you already know enough about a person to like them as a friend, is it right to assume that you know enough to determine if there is an attraction?
Hmmmm…

what is impossible….or nearly so.
Whatever is a real option does not appeal to me. I am in love with a fantasy, and it seems nothing else will do. I wonder if I got what I wanted if I’d even be happy though….somehow, I still think “yes”.

to stop having ridiculous fantasies. Life is not a movie.