experience life

By life, I mean the kind of life where you get up, wanting to live, being excited about what’s there in store for your day. the kind of life where you get inspire by everything you see.

The kind of life that isn’t filled with responsibilities, School, work and surrounded by money and by what is to come in the future.

The kind of life where you live in the moment. If you feel like packing up and leaving everything you’ve known, you do that.

The kind of life where I’m not afraid to be hurt, to be vulnerable, to be in a position that I’m afraid to be in. To not be afraid of love.

I want to live life, with a sense of being, accomplishment and happiness.

Preferably with my lover. [:

I feel numb about life. I have stumbled through life and been relatively succesfull doing it but feel I havent lived or experienced it on the way.
I feel im not creative enough, i’m not sure what interests me or excites me although i can be spontaneous…...help