be beautiful

I want to add some drama to my look. Um, my look? Yeah. Sloppy ponytail, leggings or jeans and a long tank top or tshirt.

I hesitate to put this as a goal knowing I won’t have any money to invest into it for a bit. First car stuff then furniture then clothes/hair.

Anyway, I’m thinking chrissy hynde bangs, but a bit softer, red lips and functional but feminine clothing.

I have to try to look decent despite my being a daycare lady, I’m still a woman ( I think)

Let me preface by saying this, I’ve been very small chested my entire life. I’ve always envied busty shapely women over my own more athletic build. Really no need for a bra at all…

Currently my breasts are full of milk and certainly not large, but large by my standards.

So today after my coffe smoothie fiasco, one of my daycare kids asks to dance so I turn on Beck and they start dancing. I am feeling giddy at the prospect of finally getting a car so I start dancing with them (acting totally silly). they are cracking up and in awe at the same time as this is out of character for me (see have fun goal, I’ve been a stick in the mud for some time now). I’m dancing around acting crazy and OUCH. I have to put on a bra.

Boobies are burdensome. hehehe.

after having a baby can I use “I just had a baby” as an excuse to look an utter mess all the time??

18 years or so?

I would look so much better if I lost some weight though, and put some effort into my appearance.

but my stomach is still soooo gross.

Doesn’t matter. No one will see it anyway.

dramatic Lucille Ball Waaaaaaahhhhh

I haven’t felt beautiful in a long time. starting with wearing my contact lenses more and bothering to put make up on… Need to lose a few pounds before changing my wardrobe though.

i started this because i want to be beautiful

I hope I’m not left with the lose skin thing, nervous. I’ve not had that issue before but will see. I’m loving myself bosomy though it’s a smidge uncomfortable at the moment.

I’ve got to stop crying so much, it’s got to be aging me. :)

for Monday. I really decided to go dramatic dark. Something different. We can add highlights later she said if I want. I’m excited. I know I work at home with babies and have my hair up in a ponytail most of the time but whatever. It always feels good to have a haircut and color.

this weekend. I thought about it yesterday but got too depressed to do so. I thought, what’s the point?

I can’t decide on a color. I’ve been a bright auburn for 4 years but now am a natural soft brown, was blonde for years before. I’m indecisive.

I liked the sassiness of the red but may be tired of it, not sure.

Please humor me and give an opinion. :)