take care of myself

I have cleared my nightstands off. I have been making my bed everyday. One side of my closet has been cleared. I put my suitcases out in the garage. I have lot of clotes that need to be in drawers. I have been using one of my nightstand drawers but it is not big enough for everything. I was looking at some drawers online but I am afraid I might spend all this money and not have everything fit. I have been playing with the idea of hiring a professional organizer but before I do that I will spend time in the container store looking at drawer systems. Next weekend is pretty much full but I may find some time. I have also added a few more things to the donate pile. I saw a mirror last night that would be perfect for my room. It would match my bed. There is just so much going through my head right now. Most of the things I want to buy will have to wait for next payday. Oh I forgot I also cleared off my desk and I now have an inbox that I will keep up with.

and thought i’d examine the “wheel of life” again. more balanced than my graph from 21 months ago, but still have areas that need attention. getting better at realizing it’s ok to take care of myself. that ought to be a no-brainer… why does it take so much effort?

this graph is demanding that i have more fun, so who am i to argue? :D

I would like to start wearing perfume. I like the idea of not just looking nice but smelling nice. Not something overpowering but something that people will notice and like. Choosing one is going to be difficult because what you smell in the magazines does not smell like what is in the bottle. I am not really sure of what I want. I know I don’t want a lot of floral and gardinia makes me ill. I plan on going to the store next weekend and having the salesperson help me. Even better my friend says she will buy the perfume for me as a christmas present!

I have read the book 7 secrets of slim people which is basicly all about intuitive eating. I want to read it again just to make sure I got all of the information.
I am also reading a book about body image. For the most part I accept myself as I am. I have accepted and appreciate my features and my personality but for some reason I have trouble accepting my body. I look at my body and I see such great potential. I know they say that if you accept your body for what it is then you can move forward but I have a hard time with that because it feels like I am giving up.
I am thinking about contacting a coach that specializes in intuitive eating. It’s just finding it in the budget because I want to take clothes to a tailor, finish my emergency fund, and save for a trip to Ireland. I know I need to take care of me but I want to do all of these things.

I have put up a shelf in the bathroom and put all of my skincare and makeup on it. It is up and out of the way but within easy reach and in sight. If I see it and it is easy to get too I will use it more.

I could sleep. And I wish I felt better.

Taking care of myself meant taking Tylenol and crawling back into bed. It didn’t really work, but you can’t fault a guy for trying.

I have always tacitly accepted that men in my family die in their 60s, and in the back of my head I figured I had about 25 years left.

Then I realized that they all smoked and drank to excess. None of them exercised. Most of them were over 300 pounds.

Well duh!

Well, I’m a bit of a klutz when it comes to line dancing, so just for kicks I looked up The Electric Slide on youtube to see if I could learn this at home. I found these awesome videos from “StepInTheNameOfLife”. They are light hearted and positive. This is a way to have some fun at home, while working on fitness. When I put this video on, I found out that Darling 1 doesn’t have much line dancing experience either, so she joined me in the Cupid Shuffle. Now I want to order the instruction video.

Coming to a realization that I have to make a plan for this goal. So I have outlined what I need to do to take care of myself. Hopefully I will uncover reasons why I have not been doing this and take care of those issues as well

Environment

I need an environment that helps me take care of myself instead of being something that brings me down. I need it to be organized and clean and to keep it that way.

Organize closet
Take things to goodwill, which I don’t wear, don’t fit or don’t flatter.
Finally take the clothes that I have set aside forever to a tailor so they fit me better.
Organize my folded clothes.
Organize/ get rid of things on the other side of my closet.(Including bedding,suitcases, etc)

Bedroom
Clear off my nightstands, Get rid of junk I don’t need. Curtail the clutter. Put it away or throw it away.
Make my bed everyday
Launder bedding more often. (There is nothing like slipping into fresh sheets)
Go through my books, decide what I am going to keep, sell or donate
Keep the floor clean. Just seeing a clean floor makes me breath easier
Organize my desk.

Bathroom
Put up shelves to make access to skincare, makeup easy without cluttering up the sink.

Make good routines habit
Floss every night before going to bed
Carry floss in my purse
Wash face nightly
Wear makeup every day

Get enough quality sleep
What do I have to do to sleep through the night? Not toss or turn for 2 hours before falling asleep? Do I need to journal or listen to music before going to bed? Maybe meditation?

Lose Weight

This is a hard one that I have attempted several times before but lets face it, being overweight by as much as I am is not taking care of yourself. The good thing about all my past failed attempts is I know what will not work.

I just want something simple but not expensive prepackage meals. I don’t want to have to count points or exchanges. Thin people everywhere have just eaten without having to reference a chart or graph of some sort.
I don’t want to spend half of my weekend preparing food for the next week that I will probably not find very appetizing 5 days later.
I don’t want cooking healthy things to be a hassle, a bore or stressful.
I am interested in several things and would be willing to give them a try. I just have to do it and see what works best for me.
I have a health coach that my health insurance provides. I want to call her and see what kind of help she can offer.
I want to stay away from processed foods as much as possible. I think with cooking and me it has to be fast so I don’t get bored and it has to be fun or relaxing.
I have looked a little bit into intuitive eating but I would like to talk to someone who knows more about it and that I can use as support.
I know that I eat when I am bored, or am trying to fill something so I need to research emotional eating more.

Stop drinking Soda or at least lower my intake greatly.

I know this is very bad for me I would love to just stop completely but I have tried several times before and have gone back in times of stress or being tired. It is a familiar crutch and it is hard to give up. I would like to find out more about hypnosis as I have heard that works with other types of habits.

Keep up with regular exercise

Except for this week that I have been sick this has not been a problem. I actually like the gym I am going to.

Pamper myself
Keep up with regular manicures and pedicures
Have massages at least once every other month
Keep up with regular haircuts and waxing.
Take a bubble bath every once in a while
Other things just for me because I am worth it