find my faith

Instead of me waiting to hear from Him, I need to start talking to Him and then maybe He’ll eventually answer.

I’m so scared today. I’ve had the same terrible feeling in deep in the pit of my stomach for days and all I can do is sit around and wait for whatever is going to happen to happen. It’s like waiting for a bus while you sit on hot coals.

My phone is dead and I have no news about my friend’s surgery. I have no idea if she’s okay, or if she’s out. Are there complications? Is she still alive? It’s all so consuming.

The only thing keeping me together is what hippiechick suggested. Just pray and hope for the best. I don’t know if it’s working or not but I can say one thing, it’s much better than chewing my nails.

I was born into a religious family. They were strict with making sure that I studied religion weekly. When I was 15, I rebelled and decided that I needed to separate from all the dogma, and rigidity.

I began investigating other religions from Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, Buhdism. I realized recently that it’s not about following these set paths. The path toward your connection with The Divine is very personal.

I can see the validity in every religion and they are all gateways. At the same time, they can be detrimental and even hinder one’s ability to get in touch with infinite intellegence.

Even the scientific minded person can develop this faculty. You learn that there is very little difference between science and religion when you step into the realm of understanding.

If you find yourself imposing your beleifs on others, making threats, or causing them any harm you are not in balance with The Divine. You are simply caught in a fantasy that is doing you and others harm. You will know you have it when you feel a sense of wholeness, love and compassion for everyone and everything.

I got a book. I dug it. We’ll see.

I know that typically what I am looking for can’t be found in a book but since books are what I’m comfortable with, I thought I’d explore some different options…...I need to find it however I can right? I think, inherently, it’s in there…..I just need to reconnect…...we’ll see how it goes…....sure can’t hurt to try.

i haven’t completed this goal just yet but i found a quote i think fits my belief on this matter:

“I would rather have a mind opened by wonder than one closed by belief”

funny, but i think i found this quote from another 43thinger…not sure who,though, but at least i know I’m not alone on this…

I was sitting at my parents this afternoon watching a program about the Lake District (such a great place). One of the things mentioned in it was the foundation of the Quakers. It talked briefly about their meetings being held in silence unless they feel the need to speak. That it is time for inward contemplation, to regain calm. I like that idea.

I am sure that I know all the bits and pieces…..just have to put them together. It is certainly find my faith, not find my religion.

To find the church I used to love as a child when everyone seems to want to progress. Alternative just isn’t the same as traditional.

Did you ever have those times when you think you about to lose someone close?

I’ve been having that feeling all for the past week. Ever since this whole…drama went down, I’m suddenly always alone. I don’t know whats worse the fact I’m always alone in a house full of people or the fact I won’t do anything about it.