Answer this 7 questions every saturday for a month.

1. What did I fail?
Last year: Achieving a compromise between every me
Today status: To foresee the consequences of a good deed and how it may affect negatively some.
2. What am I resisting?
Last year: Choices, choices on people, on love, on profession, on familly on myself
Today satus: Sorted out most of the choices that scared me. Now I’m just with one left, a choice of partner.
3. What did I do well?
Last year: Work
Today status: Put in order my life one day at a time.
4. What can I do better?
Last year: Persistence
Today status: Productivity at work. Demand more and deliver more.
5. Were you the person you want to be during the past year?
Last year: Sometimes yes, sometimes no
Today status: Yes.
6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Last year:
Short: Achieved
Medium: Somewhere mid february the events I put in motion past year would reach it intended conclusion.
Long term: I’m still aiming for the godhead.

Today Status:
Short: Working on it.
Medium: Attained
Long term: I’m still aiming for the godhead.
7. What am I grateful for?
Last year: One of the most challenging years I’d had, friends, 43things

Today status: Being loved for two wonderful humans, the closer relationship with mother, new and old friends showing up, facebook and twitter, new job, more time to unravel myself, challenging stuff ahead.

Today Status:

1. What did I fail?
Achieving a compromise between every me

2. What am I resisting?
Choices, choices on people, on love, on profession, on familly on myself

3. What did I do well?
Work

4. What can I do better?
Persistence

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past year?
Sometimes yes, sometimes no

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: Achieved
Medium: Somewhere mid february the events I put in motion past year would reach it intended conclusion.
Long term: I’m still aiming for the godhead.

7. What am I grateful for?
One of the most challenging years I’d had, friends, 43things friends that gave me their support, learning to live simple and finding love.

. What did I fail?
money management

2. What am I resisting?
confrontations, career commitment

3. What did I do well?
Finished the train controller

4. What can I do better?
communicate clearly

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
Yes.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: sort of. I just was reactive but did most of what I was suppose to do.
Medium: Nope. Lack of a working plan
Long term: No

7. What am I grateful for?
getting less depressed

1. What did I fail?
class has come to a miserable halt.
didn’t exercise or finish the train controller

2. What am I resisting?
the last ditch failure

3. What did I do well?
Threw out negativity and took back power.
Realized that I was blocking what I could do to help by wanting to do what I wanted to do instead of what others wanted me to do.

4. What can I do better?
Organization – my time is getting stretched

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
Yes.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: no, not at all
Medium: took a stab at it
Long term: yes. I’m becoming more aware.

7. What am I grateful for?
My new friendships.

1. What did I fail?

Nothing. I acomplished everything I wanted to.

2. What am I resisting?

Nothing.

3. What did I do well?
Stuck to my schedule. Finished everything I wanted to finish this week. Made progress towards next week’s goals. Overdeliver. Completed all the contracts I made with myself.

4. What can I do better?
Repeat this success more often…

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
Yes.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: My Thesis. I delivered the text and completed a demo.
Medium: I got an agreement with my boss about the payment of my allowances and with that info scheduled payments on my credit cards, sent a complaint letter to my ISP about the situation with my account.
Long term: Back in my two feets, only one credit card, looking for a new 8-6 job, starting another career, being sucessful with my freelance work, travel trough Central America for a month doing volunteer work.

7. What am I grateful for?
Making my dreams real, at least the ones I know I can.

1. What did I fail?

-Handling monday’s crisis properly

2. What am I resisting?

-Avoiding the confrontation required to get the office to pay the allowances they owe me and get my finances into balance.

3. What did I do well?
-Cleaned the house, well I was manic (still I am I think hehehe, I’d rearranged my books a dozen times in the last two hours)

4. What can I do better?
-Stick to my schedule

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
-No, I lose my cool hahahaha, that shouldn’t had happened, I used to handle the office stress quite well, guess is the lack of sex hehehe.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: Finish my thesis, nop
Medium: Go back in balance, nop, being avoiding that meeting with my boss.
Long term: I don’t even want to see beyond december, and I’m running out of time, only less than 50 days to change things.

7. What am I grateful for?
Spending a week with beautiful minds, devoting the weekend to my home.

I did it. I unclogged the sink, wiped the crud off everything and inhaled toxic cleaning supplies. The box-o-elves did not help me. It is still dripping a bit. I think the garbage disposal has an internal leak.

I really want someone to reward me with a nice dinner, dancing and a night in a tidy clean expensive suite, with starched sheets and rediculously expensive bath soaps. Flowers and new clothes would be great too.

Now I must tackle cleaning my room.

1. What did I fail?
organizing my room and catching up my work

2. What am I resisting?
Cleaning under the sink. Its a dirty job and I have to do it. The sink is clogged, I have to go under there and do the plumbing. Can’t I just have a friend that loves this kind of challenge show up and do it gladly? There was a leak and now its horrible under there. I can’t run the dishwasher until I fix it.

3. What did I do well?
Discovered and admitted that I’m afraid of calculus which made all the difference.
Set up a plan for purchasing with the coworker.

4. What can I do better?
Stick to the plan

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
no. still lonely and depressed.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: some
Medium: better
Long term: needed the time for the other stuff

7. What am I grateful for?
no direct conflicts, or at least being able to put them into perspective.

1. What did I fail?
controlling spending, catching up in class

2. What am I resisting?
don’t know…. OK, I have to answer this or else I’m just obviously avoiding something and I’m unwilling to admit it.

So I copied these from wikipedia
Freud’s Five Kinds of Resistance
Ego
1. “Repression,” e.g. reaction-formation, obsession, phobia (i.e. denial or avoidance)
2. “Transference,” (i.e. projection)

"keep material that was previously avoided out of awareness" 
ego
  3. "Gain from illness," (i.e. secondary gain) 
id 
  4. "Compulsion to repeat," (i.e. acting out) 
superego 
  5. "Sense of guilt or need for punishment," (i.e. self-   sabotage)

So the only thing I can really say that is obvious is that I didn’t ask my coworker to purchase workshop materials with the project funds because I was avoiding judgement and confrontation. That will effect me financially because I will have to wait to be reimbursed. that would fit with #4, which protects the “id” – so could it be that I like to shop? Its fun and I get to make the choices and design from the store? Thats a planning issue. Maybe I need to do the prototype shopping trips earlier. I also need to alert the buyer that the day will come. Simple enough.

3. What did I do well?
organized workshop materials

4. What can I do better?
design a battery holder that is easier and pretty, develop a training for the workshop that makes it simpler so future workshops will be less crazy

5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
not really. had less energy but didn’t stress certain times that I normally would.

6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: only the immediate stuff got done this week
Medium: still not working on the personal goals as effectively as needed, not spending time on work to be done to avoid a crunch later
Long term: Completed some goals from previous week

7. What am I grateful for?
that I’m still employed and at least some of the people I work with are wonderful and supportive of each other.

1. What did I fail?
My commitment to overdeliver.
2. What am I resisting?
Decisions.
3. What did I do well?
Handle the R affair.
4. What can I do better?
Control my finances.
5. Were you the person you want to be during the past week?
No
6. Did I get closer to achieving my short, medium, and long-term goals?
Short: yes
Medium: yes
Long term: still unplanned

7. What am I grateful for?
Reconnecting with old friend trough Facebook, meeting Ivor and sharing toughts about writting, J is back in my life.