eliminate the stuff from my life which doesn't fulfill me spiritually, emotionally or creatively

and as usual, the bug is catching.

Katherine accumulated a lot of junk on her floor, part of my task in taking this room apart and putting it back together is to create spaces for stuff so lots of it won’t end up back on the floor.

Today’s Word from Joel and Victoria Osteen:

Strife is a very destructive force. It can creep into relationships by starting small, maybe through a comment or a wrong look from someone, and can then escalate into something much bigger. But when you choose to cease from strife and overlook an offense, you are acting honorably, and you are honoring God.

How do you avoid strife? The Bible tells us that love covers over many offenses. It means that you give people the benefit of the doubt. You consider what they may be going through over how they reacted to you.

Maybe someone was short with you at the office, but they may have a loved one in the hospital, or they may have some other concern. Instead of getting upset, walk in love—be patient, be kind to them.

Choose to avoid strife. Look for ways to walk in unity with the people in your life. The Bible says that He has commanded the blessing when we walk and live in unity.

Choose unity today and watch the hand of the Lord move mightily on your behalf!

How sad to actually realize this truth. I have spent years trying to understand this phenonomen. This weekend I learned to just accept that “it is what it is”. They are not going to change.

I spent yesterday afternoon waiting for my mother & step-dad to bring me a mattress & boxsprings that they offered because I still don’t have the money for a bed. I am paying out my sofa set so I am sleeping on that.

I was home from 1 on waiting to hear from them. She called at 7:30 and asked if I had called her. They had gone mushrooming and had 2 hours more of cleaning them so I will have to wait until next Sunday for a bed if they can fit it in their busy schedule.

There was a time this would have really upset me…now I just shrug and know all things happen for a reason in God’s time.

Time to revist worry. I am worrying too much about things that work themselves out. I realize this, now to put my energy someplace else. It’s a nervous restless energy that transforms itself into worry. I have yet to find a spiritual home here. That would help alot.

This doesn’t fit exactly because rehearsal/shows DO fulfill me creatively, spiritually and emotionally… all three, actually…

yet I am feeling called to stop for a bit, to focus on my children and my writing, especially… and am trusting that when I am called to do something, I will hear it more clearly because I won’t have the “interference” of working on a show.

I have been so blessed this year with the roles I have played. Fantastic!

this is me and my “stage daughter”, Haley….

I just eliminated a bad roommate from my life for good! Whew! (I’m so pissed at her!!)

until today – four days later.

In the past, this would have caused almost ridiculous amounts of upset.

Now – it was mildly frustrating and I chose to be ok with it. I didn’t get upset or rant or anything, becuase it didn’t change anything.

This feels good, to know this level of peace.

The Nine of Spades can be a card of loss and disappointment. However, the true nature of the card reveals that its presence in your life for any period of time does not have to be a disaster. In actuality, the Nine of Spades represents making a completion of some importance. Whether this is the end of a certain occupation, way of life, or way of being with your health and body will depend upon the position of the card and the circumstances in your life at the time. But rest assured that some important aspect of your life is coming to an end when this potent card shows up.
This is also one of the death cards and indeed, when this card shows up there will be a death in your life of some kind. We go through many mini-deaths in the course of our lifetime and just like the snake shedding its skin, arrive at a new and better place each time we do so. Therefore the Nine of Spades is not a card to be feared but instead a card to be welcomed. It always has the ability to clear away all the unwanted and useless debris in our life and put us back on a new course where we are much more enlivened and satisfied.

The Nine of Diamonds is often associated with financial losses of one kind or another but its true meaning is that of a completion in regards to some values that we have been holding. For this reason, it could be an indicator of the ending of a certain kind of work that you have been doing for a long time, or the ending of a certain pursuit. This could be the pursuit of some financial goal, some relationship, or some other ‘thing’ that is valued.

When money does seem to be lost under the Nine of Diamonds, keep in mind that this is just the preparation for a new cycle of incoming money. Sometimes we need to spend some money to stimulate more to come in.

I hold on to things, relationships, jobs, ideas…most anything long after I should have let them go. This is part of the reason my life has been hard lately. I keep the old stuff far too long.

So this exercise is going to be very good for me. I started this weekend by throwing out 3 trash bags worth of accumulated papers that for some reason I thought I actually needed to keep.