eliminate the stuff from my life which doesn't fulfill me spiritually, emotionally or creatively

and I may come back to it. For now I need goals that are more specific and keep me on task.

were the last words of meaning I said to Railroad Man.

Whenever I have repeated conversations that lack substance, form or are downright negative, I step back and say “enough.”

These were the clinchers in the endings of my last three relationships.

So, when I heard myself say, “This is not adding to my life” – meaning the same conversation we have had countless times, I realized, this is good. this is enough. i am done.

He hung up on me, which clinched the deal.

because it just didn’t feel worth it. I was actually having conflicts with the Director (I am so unused to conflicts) and I just wasn’t having any fun.

Things seem to be on the mend and for now, I am sticking with it – but praying things get easier.

I have decided y’all remind me of this! that after this show and “She Loves Me” I want to try to not do theatre that involves me away from home in the evenings. I want to be home in the evenings with the children, especially Katherine since I don’t have much more time with her.

I will miss it I am sure, but I only have her for a finite time.

Do this! It makes room for great things in your life

everywhere I look in my house there are piles of things with no home. Much of it is my son’s but I am bad too. I simply can not believe that I “need” this much stuff in my life.

So, I am looking forward to today being over. So inspiring, eh?

I am helping with the Bakersfield Community Theatre awards show. This awards show is probably the single event that made me quit my work with that theatre and yet, here I am, helping again!?

I allowed myself to get guilted into it. I am not doing that anymore.

Today, the curtain closes on getting guilted into doing things I really don’t want to do.

12 hours from now, this event will be history!

I am feeling frustration in the pit of my stomach.

It hurts.

I am dropping a couple things this week. I didn’t get the chance to paint Katherine’s room though I did declutter.

I am not going to commit to do anything if there is any glimmer of “I really don’t wanna.” Right now I have two of these sorts of things hovering about me, things that I am supposed to do this weekend.

yech.

Memories are appearing more clearly. Instead of romaticizing the past I am seeing what actually happened and learning from those experiences. Have to admit it is painful but I pray it is also healing.

and as usual, the bug is catching.

Katherine accumulated a lot of junk on her floor, part of my task in taking this room apart and putting it back together is to create spaces for stuff so lots of it won’t end up back on the floor.

Today’s Word from Joel and Victoria Osteen:

Strife is a very destructive force. It can creep into relationships by starting small, maybe through a comment or a wrong look from someone, and can then escalate into something much bigger. But when you choose to cease from strife and overlook an offense, you are acting honorably, and you are honoring God.

How do you avoid strife? The Bible tells us that love covers over many offenses. It means that you give people the benefit of the doubt. You consider what they may be going through over how they reacted to you.

Maybe someone was short with you at the office, but they may have a loved one in the hospital, or they may have some other concern. Instead of getting upset, walk in love—be patient, be kind to them.

Choose to avoid strife. Look for ways to walk in unity with the people in your life. The Bible says that He has commanded the blessing when we walk and live in unity.

Choose unity today and watch the hand of the Lord move mightily on your behalf!