eliminate the stuff from my life which doesn't fulfill me spiritually, emotionally or creatively

once a day until i’ve done it…I feel like I’ve gotten rid of a lot of fear that I had with money…you can’t take the stuff with you when you go, so I’ve been not so tight with it, or worrying when it’s not around! It’s a really “freeing” kindof feeling…now I just have to work on not worrying about everything else in my life that’s not that important!!

I’ve got to figure out which things in my life don’t fulfill me in all of these ways…

1. Getting mad/upset/frustrated over things that aren’t a big deal….really though…some of the things I get mad about are NOT the end of the world.

2. Being afraid of what people think about me.

I gotta start being more aware of how I react to things and to try and let go of the negative thoughts I have when I meet new people.

I wonder what things would actually fall into this category…TV? Some of my co-workers?? How can I eliminate my co-workers? MUAH HAHA!! :)

I am letting go…..

and I may come back to it. For now I need goals that are more specific and keep me on task.

were the last words of meaning I said to Railroad Man.

Whenever I have repeated conversations that lack substance, form or are downright negative, I step back and say “enough.”

These were the clinchers in the endings of my last three relationships.

So, when I heard myself say, “This is not adding to my life” – meaning the same conversation we have had countless times, I realized, this is good. this is enough. i am done.

He hung up on me, which clinched the deal.

because it just didn’t feel worth it. I was actually having conflicts with the Director (I am so unused to conflicts) and I just wasn’t having any fun.

Things seem to be on the mend and for now, I am sticking with it – but praying things get easier.

I have decided y’all remind me of this! that after this show and “She Loves Me” I want to try to not do theatre that involves me away from home in the evenings. I want to be home in the evenings with the children, especially Katherine since I don’t have much more time with her.

I will miss it I am sure, but I only have her for a finite time.

A great thing to do. It makes room for wonderful new experiences in your life

everywhere I look in my house there are piles of things with no home. Much of it is my son’s but I am bad too. I simply can not believe that I “need” this much stuff in my life.

So, I am looking forward to today being over. So inspiring, eh?

I am helping with the Bakersfield Community Theatre awards show. This awards show is probably the single event that made me quit my work with that theatre and yet, here I am, helping again!?

I allowed myself to get guilted into it. I am not doing that anymore.

Today, the curtain closes on getting guilted into doing things I really don’t want to do.

12 hours from now, this event will be history!