Know my dream

I crossed my Faith bridge and made it into my Dream! I’m going to take this moment to savour this crossing. Then I’m going to explore my new place.

I’m procrastinating on this goal[even typing out the word ‘procrastinating’ took a while]. I know exactly what I need to do, and I even have a new goal to help me with it: List 100 things I want in my life. I saw this fabulous goal and immediately adopted it. And for the last two days, did nothing.

Speaking with J. this week, I decided to map out my dream, to actually draw it out and then add small, incremental steps to getting there. The steps will be easily attainable stuff, and then continually reward myself when I achieve these goals. The idea is to keep building up my motivation and positive associations with my dream. I’m still excited thinking about my map, I just need to sit down and do it.

Do it, do it, do it!

Talking with J. today, I decide to map out my dream, to actually draw a map with small, attainable steps to getting there. I’ve been living a dream that belongs solely to my parents, and I’ve always felt uneasy with it but didn’t know why. Now I know that it’s because it was never my dream, it wasn’t what I wanted for myself. I simply inherited it from my parents.

To be authentically me and happy with my life, I have to create and live into my own dream. I’m going to draw out my dream first – everything that I want, and then start at the beginning with each incremental step to get myself there.

I read an article today that spoke about looking beyond the immediate, the tangible and going to where we truly want to go. The writer gave an example using her karate experience. Her instructor asked her to hit and break an inch-thick wooden board with her bare hands. She balked at this because she didn’t think that she could do it, and would break her hands. The instructor’s reply was amazing and I’m still spinning on it: ‘You’re suppose to hit beyond the board, not the board itself. Aim for a place past the board.’

These words keep swirling in my mind because I think the key to achieving goals is not to focus on what’s right in front of me, but for the underlying reason that motivated me to go after the goal. It’s not about the money, it’s about what I want it to give me once I have it. It’s not simply about the people I welcome into my life, it’s about why I want these relationships.

What do I really want?

This is what I need to focus on. I have to be honest and dig deeper to find what I truly want and why I want it.

I know what I want. Oh, yes.

Knowing my dream and living it is also like knowing my purpose in life. This is important. A life without knowing my purpose would be a squandered life. I don’t want to do that.

“Live your life as though every act were to become a universal law.”
- Henry David Thoreau

What dream do I have for myself? I thought I was clear on where I want to go with my life, but now that I’m confronted with this question I can’t find the words. I’m stuck at “Ummmm…” Without a destination I might end up somewhere I don’t want to be. In fact, I’ve done that already, mindlessly going with the flow, trying to please everyone but me. No, that won’t work anymore. I’ve learned that lesson and I need to move on. Under this goal, I want to explore all the places I want to discover and experience in my life; my true purpose, so that I can create a map to get there. And when I do catch up to my dream, I’ll be thrilled to be there.