learn to love

for almost 24 years ,i don’t know what i have done and what i will to do .afer a aborted amativeness ,i have found clearly that i hav’nt the ability to love others.it is mysterious that loving and deal with other person

My relationship of 4 years ended 3 years ago and then my brother died of cancer at 32 years of age, and I never believed I could love anyone I was in so much grief and sadness. Then I just started being kinder to myself and forgiving myself more and learnt to love me… with that I met him, and he just loved me for me, no airs and graces. First I learnt to love myself and then the relationship with him was like breathing…still going strong.

I have never been in love. It’s as simple as that. For the most part of my life I’ve been unwilling to say, that maybe I’d actually would like to experience that. Maybe I’d actually like to be able to consider a relationship that would last more than one night.

I still might not say those things out loud, but at least I’m thinking them.

I don’t know why I have commitment issues, both my grandparents, all of my great grandparents and my own parents all married to the same person (except in cases of death) and completely in love the whole time. My parents are 47 years old and just had their 26th wedding anniversary, my grandparents are almost at their 50th. But I cannot make even the smallest commitment, I am in a relationship for longer than a month and I bug out, and usually I don’t even get that far. I need to figure out why I have this issue and fix it. I do not want to be alone anymore!

It is unhealing wound..
..sometimes still bleeds

I’m scared of being in a relationship. I can’t be with one guy for too long before feeling like I’m going to suffocate. Its never their fault.

‘We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find.’

Hopefully she’s not that far and just round the corner . :)

aww..I have lost the art of love.sorry for myself.
Love is smth that is not meant for me.
Teach me if you can :>

Pcd – hush hush.mp3

“We love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving.” -Friedrich Nietzsche

Sometimes it is hard for me to love people. I do my best to look at people without prejudice, or pity, or contempt, but sometimes I can’t look past any negative first impression that I form.

I’m making this a goal because I want to go through my life just loving people. I’m not talking about Hollywood, red-hot love. I just mean love. In every sense of the word.

Wish me luck.

I am so hard hearted wen it comes to letting peopole get close to me especially dudes…..nt that im mean im actually really nice bt wen i begin to fall in love something tells me to shut down and dnt go back….i dont like relationships maybe because i dnt want to commit or i dont want someone to have to commit to me??? well this is something i would like to learn one day i am begining to get lonely?!!!!