record something that's making me feel something today

The gigs didn’t go well. He enjoyed seeing his old friends, but seemed really glad to be back home. REALLY REALLY glad! ;)

I’m getting tons of compliments about my mole removal. I never really WANTED to get rid of it, but now I’m soo glad I did.

Hubby left early this morning with some of his old band mates. They have some “reunion” gigs this week & I’m here alone. I already miss him. It’s so weird being lovesick. I always thought of myself as so independent… :)

My plastic surgeon gave me a free consult with his skin clinic where you can get medical grade skin care products. I have never seriously considered plastic surgery, but I take good care of my skin.

The doc recommended Retin-A for me, so I decided to give it a try.
He also scheduled me for a free chemical peel, once my face fully heals from the mole removal. I’ve never had a peel, so I’m kind of curious & excited to find out what it’s going to do.

and looked at my face, sans mole. I know it’ll probably look great when it’s healed. A very good plastic surgeon did it.

The incision was more than twice the diameter of my mole, bigger than I expect, but tucked carefully into the natural folds of my face. So even if there’s a scar, it shouldn’t be too bad.

I feel relieved that all the surgical stuff is out of the way. I find out about the biopsies on Monday. It’ll probably be ok, but you never know for sure ‘til you know for sure.

Had the moles removed yesterday & I’m in a lot of pain. On top of that, someone we know over-stepped, and rather than tell her so, he defended her actions as “trying to be cute.” I felt so hurt.

I know the grogginess, the pain & the meds have something to do with the way I feel, but he was still wrong to take her side, especially when I’m at such a physical low.

He was mom’s older brother. Today was also the second anniversary of mom’s death, which means something to me, but I’m not sure what.

I cried for several reasons, not the least of which is the fact that my family has become so estranged since mom’s death. That, combined with the fact that my other uncle hasn’t spoken to the one that died in thirty years made me stop & think about what a mixed bag it is that I grew up hillbilly. Not the kind of hillbilly that wore overalls & had no teeth, but still… There’s a lot of truth behind the “Hatfields & McCoys” stereotype. Nobody can carry a grudge like a hillbilly.

It makes me sad – sad that the huge family I grew up with seems to have scattered to the winds, sad that some of them are mad at me & will carry that grudge with them to the grave.

Heavy stuff, I know… So I could only spend a few minutes thinking about it. Then I had to go back to my everyday life, more grateful than ever that I was able to escape, and for all the people that love me.

I still felt sad, but also blessed…

has backed way off & things seem to be returning to normal. I doubt either of us will forget what we’ve been through these past few months, but it’s nice to have a little breathing room.

Mine has recently come back into my life as a “friend.” When he and I broke up many years ago, it broke my heart, but after spending just a little time with him recently, I am soooooo glad it didn’t work out & more grateful than ever for hubby.

Brutus chased a skunk into our crawl space this morning. Luckily, it didn’t spray, but it did fire a small “warning shot” which permeated the entire house.

Hubby called animal control who sent a guy out to set live traps, at a charge of only $200! Should the skunk actually get caught in the trap, it will cost us another $300 to have the guy remove it.

While he was under our house, trying to figure out where he should place the traps, the guy discovered that the skunk had probably been there awhile. It had already shredded our vapor barrier and trashed some of the insulation on our air conditioning duct work, so after it’s removed, it’s going to cost us another $4000 (yes, thousand!) to make all the repairs and skunk-proof the house.

Believe it or not, it could’ve been worse. If the skunk had full-on sprayed, which is still a possibility, the guy says it could take months to get the stench out.

On the bright side, it appears our insurance may cover some of the damage. Also, the removal guy told us to fill the house with open bowls of ground coffee beans to absorb the scent and it seems to have worked. By the time I got home from work, the scent was totally gone & the house smelled like a Starbucks.

:)