Get over my first love

i keep telling myself im over him when im not. i refuse to let myself talk to him because i gave him so many chances and he blew it but i know in my heart if he came to me telling me he wanted to be with me i wouldnt refuse or it’d be very hard to do so at least. he was my bestfriend but when he told me to let go and open up i did an i fell and fell hard in doing so and where was he to catch me? nowhere… guess i was just a makeout buddy to him..

I remember when I was love sick. You block out everyone. You feel so tired, because you haven’t slept in forever. You know that he’ll be in your dreams, but you don’t want to stay awake laying in your bed crying either. You’re starving, but you can’t eat because you’re starving for him and every memory just leaves you a bigger hole in your heart. Even your clothes remind you of him what you wore when you hung out.
You can still smell him all over them, even though his scent hasn’t been there for long. You wish his scent would be stuck on you, but you know you’d be pulling at your skin trying to get him off you. You’re online, all day just waiting for him to come on even if its for a minute. but then that minute kills cause he cant stay longer You stop talking to your friends, and they get worried and try comforting you, but they just make you feel worse because they think they know, but they don’t have a damn clue

It’s only been a week, and my good friend is on a trip downtown with my boyfriend, alone. She has a boyfriend, and they are “job hunting” but it still really pisses me off. She makes time to hang out with him alone.. but not with me. Grrrrrrrrr. I know he’s no longer mine, and when I hung out with him he said he wouldn’t go if I didn’t want him to.. but what right do I have to say no… even if I know they’re going to talk about me. :’(

Today was the first time I hung out with my boyfriend just as friends. It didn’t feel too different, except for the fact that we tried to avoid silly arguments. We went to lunch and then talked in his car for two hours.. he was supposed to leave at two but I kept an hour longer. It was 2.5 weeks since I last saw him and he’s honestly one of my best friends, so I had a lot to talk about. I also needed to be reassured that he wasn’t gonna go out and immediately hook up with a bunch of other girls. It was just comforting to know he was the same patient, loving, great listener he has always been, allowing me to talk as much as I wanted even though he had to go. :P We didn’t really talk about our relationship… but I feel like I got the closure that I needed, knowing he hasn’t changed. When I left, I gave him a hug, and was about to kiss him on the cheek, but then he kissed me on the lips… and proceeded to give me a wedgie… typical behavior lol. I left feeling so much better, I was afraid I would be sad, but no, I’m glad I was able to see him once more before we both go our seperate ways to college. Although it wasn’t said, I think we both know believe that God willing, we may get back together someday. It wasn’t as “final” as I feared it would be. And if anything, I know we have our friendship. :)

Seeing him tomorrow, after almost three weeks. I hope that’s not a bad idea. :(

My boyfriend and I finally broke up, after months of fighting. Not major fights, but I was usually upset with him over something, whether he didn’t call/text enough, didn’t compliment me as much anymore, or just didn’t seem interested. The tough part is whenever we were alone together we got along really well, whether we were downtown or just hanging out at home. It was when we were apart, or when we were with friends, that we had issues. Now that we’re going off to different colleges we both knew we wouldn’t last in our current state, so we decided to call it quits. It has been really hard on both of us, we were each others first loves. But when I told my friends, none of them were surprised.. which hurt but it also was a wake up call. Still, I miss him so much, and he told me he misses me. It makes it harder knowing how upset he is, I thought he would have no problem getting over me. I haven’t seen him in two weeks (broke up online), all I wanna do is see him and hug him…. :(

it started when we were still in school when we were 15 we lived on different sides of the island and met through my sister they lived on the same side of the island and went to school together. they would come to the east side every weekend. she lived with her grandma and they were strict on her, so since her mom was a family friend she would use the excuse that she was going to stay with her mom every weekend, her mom was cool with us doing that. that plan worked until i left some evidence on her that announced that she had a boyfriend she went home with a fatty hickey on her neck, that was also the weekend we were going to pop our cherries. she was not allowed to go with her mom om the weekends for some time thats when the fist break happened her family didn’t want her to have a boyfriend especially not one that she would sleep at his house. i regretted leaving that hickey. we got things rolling again when things cooled down, it was kind of like we started from the beginning not from wehere we left off. about 2 weeks after we started again i found out she cheated on me with a tourist that was staying at the marriot. we broke up when i found out, i was and am still in love with her. i tried to stop thinking about her but that did’nt work, every now and then she would pop up at my house and i’d be over her until i seen her. then for some time we didn’t see each other for some time but the hurt was still there. i soon found out that she had a new boyfriend and i was nutz when i found out i wanted to go and look for this guy but i didnt. she went to the mainland for a month for what i don’t know, maybe the last week her trip i got a call from her telling me she was confused her and wanted to find out if she really loved me or not,around that time my puppies were just born and i still didnt name them yet she named them kana and mele(rest in peace) they passed away right before we broke up for the last time,till this day she dosen’t even know and they were supposed to be our puppies. when it started she told me that we were starting from the beggining again and we were going to take it slow. i agreed with it and i was more than happy to have her back in my life, maybe a week later i told her i loved her and she didn’t tell me anything she told me were taking it slow this time, after that happened i pretty much knew that it wouldn’t last it lasted for about 3-4 months. one night she came to my house out of the blues, she came to my house to break up with me. my week just kept getting more worse and more worse from my puppies leaving me to the girl i thought i truly loved. i found out that after we broke up she started seeing someone else the same dumass. the first time i seen what he looks like i woke up to his ugly ass in my back yard a couple days later i found out that she is pregnant from this dumass and she is keeping it cause she dont believe in abortions. the day i found out just so happen i was cooking and who do i see walking in my yard my ex and her dumass boyfriend holding hands i not going lie i get jealous, so she comes in and sits down little while and talk story. i made both of them 2 sandwhiches, later that day i found out its been killing me ever since. did i mentioned that i have never had sex with this girl and its like im whipped.its been 3 years since we first started and 1 year and 3 months since our last one. everyday i think about her or what it would be like to be with her again but i could never be with her cause thats not the girl i fell in love with, you would think that i would be over her after you read this story but i always think about all the fun times we had together

When I look back now it is so silly! There is no such thing as particular things you can do to make this happen… you just needs lots of time and perspective to realize that if this person were all you thought they were and you were right for each other that you would be living happily ever after right now. I became with my first love on Facebook recently and apparently he has joined a cult and is using the social networking forum to recruit new members, so not what I want in life!

Hey so my situation is a little different. Me and this guy never went together.He was my first “everything”. We spent everyday together. We were almost there but then we had this huge falling out. We basically had everything but the title. That was my Freshman year of college. So we stopped talking sophmore year only txt and spoke occasionally. And I was a wreck. Turns out that our junior year he had gotten into a relationship. Yet we had begin to pick up where we left off. We’ve told each other how we feel and the whole situation is really complicated. He’s not in his relationsip any more but I that doesn’t matter. I know I was wrong for partaking in him cheating on her but he started back contacting me. In a way I feel like I was there first so its ok. I love this boy and now that I’m a rising senior I’m ready to either make it offical or leave him the hell alone for good cuz my heart cant take anymore of this back and forth.I’ve never been in such a complicated situation in my life. Sometimes I regret the day I met him. So tell me what you guys think. Dont sugarcoat anything!!! Thanks

I just recently broke up with my first boyfriend. He’s mexican and only speaks spanish, last month he spoke to his parents in mexico and his parents are asking him to come back home. He told me that he totally forgot about him going back to mexico. Then one time he gets a call from a girl and they were on the phone for about 10 min. After they hung up I asked him who was on the phone and he didn’t answer me, all told me was that it was one of his boys. I didn’t believe for one second. Anyways and then all of sudden on my birthday he told me that he talked to his parents again and his mom asked him when is he coming back home. So we broke up on my birthday. One more thing he told that he’s not sure when he’s going to mexico. So I don’t know what to think if the reason we broke up is cause he’s going to mexico or cause of the girl and I’m still having a hard time trying to get over him. Everything that he gave me I put it in a shoe box, up in my closet. I try to keep really busy and not think about him but its really hard. I still love him, I need somebody’s opinion of what should I believe. My girls husband says that might be the reason why we broke up. So I don’t know what to believe. Can somebody give me advice how to keep busy so I won’t think about him. The reason I’m saying about why we broke its cause in the back of my mind I thought of that girl. HELP!