Find my path in life

I’m trying to figure out my path in life, I hope I can find it soon….

I am on a quest to find my work

Yeh…its worth doing,and if you know exactly what it is you want to do then its just a case of fighting for that thing….but what if you dont know?
Im 37 years old,single,jobless,little money,no home of my own…bla bla bla.
Ive worked in many different types of jobs,i have qualifications in three diferent types of careers and yet neither of them are the right one…so i have to start again.
Ive lived in three diferent countries…searching….and still i am lost.
In this time i had three depressive breakdowns and even though im keeping it at bay at the moment i know that if i carry on like this another depressive attack will surface.
Motivation is slipping.
I know i have the strength to pursue something…i just dont know what.
I start things and never finish them…and i seem to have trouble getting rid of bad habits….bla..bla.
The list goes on.
Sick of it…........i wanna move on…better myself.

first option following path

Wise people told me:

If you don’t know what you want, find it by walking around, not by standing in one place.

So I continued to stand in one place, picking my nose, looking around, but not doing much. It was mildly entertaining, but also slightly boring and demoralizing. Then I started walking. That wasn’t boring, but it was a bit demoralizing and scary. I didn’t know where I was going, so I was walking in circles. It was good exercise.

Then I found people along the way who pointed things out to me. They would say, I experienced this thing recently, you have to see it too. So I did. They encouraged me. I cherished those positive people. Collected them. Started to believe. I also learned a lot. I started being proactive, not reactive. I started seeking out people, ideas, learned new things.

Started to fill up with ideas. Found what I liked and what I didn’t like. Sometimes I would fall, and my butt would be full of thorns. That wasn’t pleasant. But I noticed more and more things I liked. Stuff that I thought I wouldn’t like before I tried it, I liked! I sought out positivity and banished negativity. I tried to get over boundaries, especially those that I created for myself.

Paths are simple. To find them, you have to search for what and who gives you joy, what and who gives you energy. And everything, sooner or later, falls in its place.

I’m a little lost.

I’ll get there eventually.

I NEVER KNEW WHAT I WANTED IN LIFE.EVERY DAY I JUST SIT IN MY EMPTY ROOM,LISTENING TO MUSIC AND STUFF.NEVER OUTSIDE WITH FRIENDS OR DOING ANYTHING.I DONT WANT TO WASTE MY LIFE LIKE I AM.I WANT TO GO OUT AND HAVE FUN,BUT I ALSO NEED TO FIND MY OWN PATH IN LIFE.I NEED TO FIND WHATS BEST FOR ME.MY DAD’S PARENTS NEVER LET HIM LIVE HIS DREAMS.I WANT TO LIVE MINE THOUGH.I WANNA KNOW THAT I CAN DO ANYTHING WITHOUT BEING REJECTED,WHETHER ITS A CERTAIN JOB I WANT OR SOMEONE THAT I LOVE,I JUST NEED TO FIND MY OWN WAY.

The things im attracted to im not that good at or im weak in the areas that are the most important in that feild, like for example I really want to become an accoutant but im not that good at math or English. I try to improve those areas but my mind just isnt wird like that. I want to become a CFPbut thats kinda like accounting so you have to be good at math and English, everything I want im not good at but heres the twist the thing I hate the most and would rather put the 45 to my head then do im really good at constrution and metal working.