Challenge myself

..am I ever going to accomplish this if I just HAVE to give in to every fucking thing?

I feel like giving up, but I’m not that stupid.

any suggestions?

I really want to start pushing myself again. I used to do this all really well about 6 years ago, and then for some reason the habit fell behind. My challenge is an all around challenge, including each aspect of life. I want to start working out again. Eating better. Improve my handwriting. Read more.

It only takes baby steps. But taking the first steps is the hardest part.

yesterday, hilary and courtney and I went to a “st pete road runners boot camp” hosted by mike masters (scary name right!). it was INTENSEEE. hilary found out abotu it online, and we met with about 6 other people who were around late 20s/early 30s. so he says we’ll start with a mile jog, nice and easy. yeaa right! it was about the fastest mile in my life!! ugh. and then we got to the park, all huffing, and we get a break and then have to do 50 jumping jacks, 10 push ups, 25 this and that, 10 push ups, 25 this, 10 pushups…and so on. for about 10 or 15 mins. then water and then it was time for AB WORK! i have decent ab muscles but it was rough. we did 25 reps of 20 different ab excersies..from the basic crunch to the “cherry bomb banana split” lol. then, we had to run back!
well. it was challenging. im sore now.
i may go back tomorrow. =X lol

“I wanted to be scared again… I wanted to feel unsure again. That’s the only way I learn, the only way I feel challenged.” – Charles W. Chesnutt

“There are no great people in this world, only great challenges which ordinary people rise to meet.” – William Frederick Halsy, Jr.

“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands in times of challenge and controversy.” – Martin Luther King, Jr.

“To be tested is good. The challenged life may be the best therapist.” – Gail Sheehy

“Every time you meet a situation, though you think at the moment it is an impossibility and you go through the tortures of the damned, once you have met it and lived through it you find that forever after you are freer than you were before. ” – Eleanor Roosevelt

I am about to be challenged, unlike in any other point of my life. Not the kind of challenge I envisioned in years gone by but challenge nontheless. I have to be productive whether I like it or not. Change happens. Challenge happens. Life happens.

I went on Tuesday, and it was really good, I only wanted to do costume design, but everyone tried some acting, which was fun, hope I get in :).

Went this evening again, it was harder, but i’m getting better, but I was in a big girls group, so there’s a lot of support, just need to practice my shooting.
I’m also gonna become a member, so don’t have to pay every time I get there :).

Just sent e-mails for:

A Youth Theatre Audition.
Youth Salsa Lessons.
and put up an advert for baby-sitting on Gumtree.

I’ll keep it updated on how it all goes :)

I started basketball, yesterday, which was a HUGE step for me, everyones been there for really long so they play really well, but I’m keeping at it, though it’s quite hard when you got tiny kids better than you! Going tomorrow again, wish me luck…