be the most supportive girlfriend i can be

i must say im pretty p.o.’ed right now, and am letting this goal slide for now. at least until i see some real improvement… i can’t do it all myself, nor should i.

it’s hard to not be frustrated with him when he’s still not working, and draining my bank. :-/ i am praying that he finds something asap so he can help me out!!!

to the doctor’s last night to try to get him some help. i know he is probably doing this more for me than for himself so i appreciate it. they want to do all sorts of tests and send him through therapy so this will probably take a long time but hopefully someday he will feel better about life.

this morning he called me on the way to work and said his car broke down. i stopped off at the exit and picked him up and convinced him that we would just leave the car there until after work so he wouldn’t have to miss a day (he’s been warned since he just started and missed a day or two due to illness). i am leaving work early to pick him up for the rest of the week so he won’t have to sit outside (they actually lock the doors at 5 – lucky!). he is going to try to fix his car himself this weekend.. hope it works! in the meantime we will just enjoy the QT to and from work together. another band-aid applied to a potential emotional breakdown.

but sometimes it is tough. we have gotten through many rough times together and right now he is trying to give up a bad habit, which makes him very cranky and irritable at times. hopefully our visit to the dr will help to stabilize his mood but he is nearly bipolar. most of the time i am very good at just brushing it off but at times it gets to me too and puts me in a bad mood. i try not to take it personally but i’m pretty sensitive so it can be hard. he did thank me this morning for being so supportive these past two years.. it’s the stuff like that that keeps me going… sometimes i just need the reassurance that it’s not a wasted effort…