remember that willingness is the key

Anyone can find peace in a cave, but bringing that peace into the chaos of the world is the issue. And it is necessary to find that peace within the world in order to know the true self, in order to discover your true relationship with the world. John McAfee

“Self-awareness or self-consciousness can lead to the enlarging of consciousness. It can lead to the expansion of control of one’s life. Self-awareness involves the capacity of not only looking back, but also looking ahead. Self-awareness is not only a gift, but it is a responsibility.”
Mufti James Hannush

by a cousin who I have not seen since I was a little one and I probably only saw her and her 3 siblings once or twice at that. Suddenly out of the blue I have recieved a letter inviting me and mine to her son’s 21st b’day party, they are all in Devon around and about… She wrote that she would like to catch up on the years and so would all the family (my dads). This feels pretty wierd as I grew up not being around any of my extended family, my mums or my dads. My mum fell out with hers when I was about 7/8 and we were not allowed to mention them. My dad just went to visit his family on his own, I don’t blame him for not wanting to take me mum but I would have loved to have gone with him. Anyway after some pondering I rang her back today and we had a good chat, which was a relief. I was worried that it would be a stilted conversation but she seems very relaxed and is looking forward to meeting me and my family. So I have kind of agreed to go to this gathering. It does feel strange as I have spent the majority of my life without this type of support network. Anyway if all is well I will be going along to meet them all, I am willing to give it a go and in some ways I hope it will provide me with some insight of my dad… Fingers crossed. However, I might be going on Saturday but I don’t think that I will be donning the Hawaiian theme dress code… Oh maybe a garland but that’s it… LOL!!!

Each new hour holds new chances, for new beginings. The horizon leans forward, offering you space to place new steps of change.
Maya Angelou

I ordered 3 Cheri Huber books from Amazon. These books will help me and give me insight to how I can change my conditioning. I tend to worry too much about spending money and always make do with what I have. So for me this feels like a breakthrough, I have done something good for myself without feeling fear or worry about it. Hooray!!!

Love is the only force capable of transforming an enemy into a friend.
Martin Luther King, Jr.

to be fully conscious in life and to have control over my mind and senses. However, I can’t see my mind being very willing to hand over the reins too easily. Mmmm, a strong willingness to change then has to happen but one has also has to be careful to find the right balance and not go too far to the side of denial and austerity.

to help someone this week. My reaction was to just spontaneously offer my services to this person, ie my ear, my shoulder and also my skills with flower and gem essences. By helping this person I have also benefitted greatly, it has really helped me to get back in touch with myself on many levels. I could have stayed quiet but I chose to willingly share myself with another. I could of also let my fear of not feeling good enough about myself take control and stop me from reaching out; but I didn’t. Therefore no regrets!!! :)

Nothing is easy to the unwilling. (Anon)

stop resisting, there comes a time to let go and stop clinging on to the way things are… Acceptance equals freedom from suffering.