stop freaking out every time someone touches me

what my problem is. I was never raped or molested or anything like that. I didn’t mind hugging people when I was little. But I got more distant in middle school, and since I started high school, I can’t stand to be touched. It drives my friends crazy, since they’re all very touchy-feely. They like to play with my hair and give each other massages and they hug constantly.
It was never a huge deal before, but it actually seems to be getting worse. I feel so uncomfortable in crowds when everyone is jostling around and bumping into me. Plus it would just be nice to wrestle around with friends and cuddle with people and give someone a big hug. I want to be comfortable giving someone a big hug.

why do people always put their hands on your back or (sholder) from behind you ..

i was raped when i was nine years old and i have had major issues with any one touching me. including my family and my b/f. i want to get over this so bad. im very social and everything, but when it comes to touching, hugging, kissing, i just feel tense and anxious.
the boy who raped me still lives next door and comes around and hugs me and is trying to be my friend. i am alright with him i suppose. i dont hate him, but i wish this had never happened.

ha my friend is hylarious most of the time she doesnt realize my arm is around ehr or somethin but then she notices and shes liek ahh dont touch me!! or she writes dont touch all over her so i do haha i poke her then she covers up the dont and i walk away it bugs ehr soooo much its fun… so people dont let ur friends have fun by bugging u!

I don’t like it that I do this, because the reason for it is not something I want to have to explain to people. I’m over the past, I really am, but I still have this- reflex- of gasping and going totally tense any time someone like comes up behind me and taps me on the shoulder. Even things as little as people brushing against the back of my chair as they walk past put me on edge so much that I sit in corners whenever possible.
It has to stop. I’m sick of telling. I don’t want it to be so obvious that there’s something in my past that I haven’t disclosed. It’s not relevant anymore and it makes things awkward with whoever I tell- in junior year this guy who liked me found out from a “friend” of mine and tried to use it to blackmail me into going out with him. I don’t need any more people knowing things that aren’t their business; if only I could act like a normal person then things wouldn’t be so complicated.

yeah i hate it when someone gets to close guy or girl it just makes me feel very uncomfortable, and if people get to close it freaks me out like a convulse and jump