you knew you could not fail?

In my case it would be to take all of my active goals that pretain to helping others and place them under the umbrella of a
non-denominational ministry called “Garden of Hope Ministries”
that becomes a beacon of hope and change.

This is what I would do if I knew I could not fail. 3 years ago

put my life into perspective. We…meaning none of us get out of this alive…so this is a reality game. The goal being what can we each contribute while we are here to make a differnce in the world.

This ministry has been on my heart for years but I have not had the courage to pursue it. It never disappears. It is always with me as unstarted(unfinished) business.

God reminds me everyday that I am not following his path for me…yet. :) 4 years ago

in my mind when I awoke this morning was to put this and the children’s items back on my Life List and leave them there until they are completed.

I had resigned myself that others are far more capable to accomplish them then me. That message from somewhere other than me so here it is again. :) 4 years ago

last night with a friend. I told her the entire vision I had received from Jesus on May 25, 2005 while I was living in Dallas. I have had this on my heart since I recovered from my brain surgery. I also expressed my astonishment in thinking that God would think I could actually accomplish this as a light of his spirit and in his name.

She sat there quietly listening then said with a smile that her son had told her that: “God does not choose the equipped. He equips His chosen.” She added things happen all in His time not ours.

I woke up this morning very peaceful and confident that my life’s next path has finally become clear doing the things that I love for glory of Our Father in Heaven. 4 years ago

Friday I was explaining I have been confused because I was trying to choose 1 thing.

He laughed and said none of us just does 1 thing in our life. He said just start and God will show me the way.

I’m usually alone at work on Fridays. He was there doing some remodeling. Seems he does more ‘re-modeling” than just construction. 4 years ago

when I awoke this morning things were crystal clear. All of my goals are the branches of this ministry rooted in my strong belief in God and his direction for my life.

Five years ago I survived death 4 times in a 6 week period. I was given the vision then as to what I was to do but didn’t act on it other than to make plans.

I have spent the past 2 years writing about these plans here on 43T. Now is the time to actually put them into action. :) 4 years ago

The answer keeps coming back to the Garden of Hope Ministries. God is speaking to me very clearly but I keep waiting for human confirmation.

The human confirmation I received was that I am an expendible expense to others…not worthy of a second thought to my well being even at Christmas time.

If I feel this way I can only imagine I am not alone.

At first I kept asking why the rug keeps getting pulled out from under me??? Why me again???

The answer came to me quietly this morning. A voice inside me said that my path is not the one I have been taking. I did not survive death 3 times to become a lonely homeless person in the wilderness.

I am still here for a reason. I know the reason. I’ve been told many times in my dreams and visions. But that path is for me to walk down…no one can do it for me. 5 years ago

in 2008. Right now I am finishing up 2007 before I plow into next year’s projects. 5 years ago

there is a vacant church for lease/sale on the main street through town. It is a cute white building with a parking lot. It has been vacant since I moved here…waiting for me to wake up to God’s direction? I do not know for certain but…

This is the perfect space for the Garden of Hope ministries Creative Arts Center for children. I wrote down the number on the sign last night. 5 years ago

is the umbrella covering all of my creative goals which is a beautiful tapestry of how I am going to spend the remaining years of my life.

I am totally at peace with this decision. I have been fighting it intellectually for 3 years now. I do not have any professional designations to do this. I am a real person with real life experiences and a passion for sharing with others. No other special degrees or licenses.

I know in my heart this is God’s plan for me. It is my authentic self coming of age. 5 years ago

In 1993 I was at dinner with friends and we were discussing the plight of seniors wanting to stay in their homes. My mother in law was 82 and had been in her home for 50 years. The last thing she wanted was to be moved to an assisted living center.

I was in the sandwich generation at that time taking care of her and our teenage sons. It was a hectic time in my life but my days were full caring for the people I love.

At dinner my friend and I discussed the idea of having a home health care service for seniors that was not neccessarily medical care but making their homes safe for them to stay, companionship and their meals. At this time I was also a Meals on Wheels volunteer so I was aware of the importance of getting seniors to eat good nutritious meals and have company everyday.

Our husbands were both attorneys and poo pooed the idea from the beginning saying the liability would be absoulutely horrendous. They would not be a part of it and as their wives in a community property state they could not endorse our business idea. It could literally be a nightmare.

Unfortunately we believed them and did not follow through on this idea.

When I moved to the wilderness I started listening to talk radio in the mornings. A few weeks ago was the first time I heard of the Visiting Angels. They have over 300 senior home health care franchises nationwide. They are doing exactly what we dicussed at dinner so many years ago.

That is my lesson that God gives us ideas. If we do not act on them someone else certainly will. His plan will be done.

As for the Garden of Hope Ministries, I cannot continue to procrastinate. It is time to do it now or God will give it to someone else. 5 years ago