she sits in her room sewing and i sit here tapping on this keyboard. she is accomplishing stuff , I am killing time. as i kill time, i am killing myself i realize but i have no bigger imagination than that. what does that sentence mean ? tap, tick, tap, tick, what sound does this keyboard make ? have any of you read george saunder s short stories..CIVILWARLAND..10TH OF DECENBER ? i read rave reviews of december and had our library buy it for us. i was disappointed cause the reviews built the book up and to me the reading was a let down. i got his first book of stories..civilwar land, am reading it now and find it much better than December. as i read, i feel as if he is trying to make me laugh out loud and doing so gives one a weird feeling especially when no one is with you. if you like weird writing with humor and some social commentary, read this book. see, i can accomplish something when i tap, tap, here. i have given you something to read which you might enjoy..take care..joe 2 months ago

These are the letters my dice rolled today and the pictures my cube turned up – 3 As, and r, i, s, e, f,g..cubes .. a cell phone, a flashlight, and eyeball with eye lashes, a turtle, a fish, an abacus, a magnet or horseshoe, a frowning face, an empty dialogue circle, and the number 4 di.
I challenge a writing genius here to write a story for me from the above clues. take care..joe 2 months ago

It s 5:25 and I am hungry after a difficult day of arguing with my wife and surfing the net. She re apolstered a chair and I sat here without an idea to impress my 32 subscribers.
I downloaded to my kindle Diane Keaton s autobiography and I will have two weeks to read it and will enjoy doing so. She is one of my favorite actresses. I can t spell apolster let alone reapolster. I will look it up and get back to this post. take care..joe
It s now 5:41 and closer yet to eating time..yea. Upholster is spelled thusly so but now according to this spell check, I have misspelled thusly or the word doesn t exist. I looked it up and it s an adverb and therefore I should be able to put an ly at the end of it. What do you subscribers think of that and for that matter, this post entirely. 3 months ago

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When I was in school, I used to look at the clock and hope for time to go by so I could go home and play. Now, as a retired teacher, I play on line and watch the clock so I can go eat and watch TV. lol It s 4:28 and we will eat at 6:30 or somewhere near that time. We ,my wife of 44 years, and I will have to agree on what to watch on TV. I have many old movies which I prefer to watch and she wants to watch network TV shows, we don t have cable, don t want to pay a monthly bill for something we can obtain free with our antenna. I hate the commercial interruptions which is a part of network TV and which I do not have to deal with while watching my old movies. It s now 4:31, 3 minutes closer to eating time..lol..take care..joe 3 months ago

It s almost 3 pm and I have managed to stay away from boredom and depressing thoughts and I have 3 hours to go before I can think of eating supper and the evening of TV viewing.
Is it healthy to sit at a pc and play word games and on line chess all day ? 3 months ago

Each time I write on this site, I feel as if I am giving this writing away to someone else who will make money from it. I am too lazy to save it to my hard drive and publish it myself someday.
I am listening to THE CARPENTER S GREATEST HITS and they never fail to bring out memories, emotions. It s fun to feel sad at times although being the king of negative-thinking as I am I should be pursuing happy feelings. More later. I intend to write here each time I feel bored during this cabin fevered time of the year..take care..joe 3 months ago

I was surprised to see that 29 people are subscribed to my post. I wish some of you would contact me and comment on my posts. I especially wish that they would comment on my goal.. coping with living with a genius.. I think I have a unique marriage, situation here.
I get very bored while she does most of the important things to keep our household running. I have tried to do little things to give me satisfaction and a feeling of a purposeful life. I retrieve the newspaper from our rural paper box at 7 am, get the mail from another box at 5, put all things away after eating, dressing, undressing etc. She has many rules of the house which I try to maintain daily. Yesterday, while seeking the mail, I left the garage door open too long and endangered the plants she has growing in pots there. The temp was very cold and she came into the garage yelling at me ..you are killing my plants.. I didn t say a word. I just walked by her and took the mail into the house. take care..joe 3 months ago

i am surprised that no one noticed my revelation that i realize that when i lose at ..words.. it makes others happy and this helps me in my goal to learn to help others..lol. i believe that using all of my cheers helps others and refusing to make negative political comments on facebook is also a form of charity. take care..joe 6 months ago

at times, it becomes extremely difficult for me to accept myself. i keep making the same mistakes at chess. i seem to be getting worse while my opponents seem to be getting better. i will not quit. i am learning that i am a careless, non concentrating person at times and at age 70 i am going to continue to keep working on these weaknesses. the chess allows me to work on these weaknesses in a way that no other hobby can do. there is one player who has begun to dominate me so severely that it s hard to take. i will not quit playing him. i will improve and or learn about chess and myself by losing to him. take care..joe 6 months ago

in one more hour, i can go to sleep and know that in the am we are leaving my sister in law and our 94 yr. old grandpa to go home for a few days and then go to my granddaughter s 8 birthday party. these trips are difficult for me. this visit here means i sleep on an air mattress with my wonderfully built wife sleeping in the front room on a couch as i sleep in this little man cave den. of course, we cant couple while on the road cause someone might see the mess on the sheets or even smell our emissions.
we will arrive home around 2 pm, be very tired and know that another coupling won t occur till wed pm after my meeting with my slowly growing chess club. i keep checking my on line chess games at gameknot.com where my name is mrmrder and checking espn to see the baseball score and the football score. the giants will win game 6 which means the 7th game will decide who goes to the world series to meet the tigers on weds. night in the national league city. our birthday party will be held near detroit and my son in law may get a chance to go to a series game. we root for the indians for the regular season than root for the tigers in the play offs. we would root for the indians but they never or rarely ever get to the play offs. 6 months ago

a way to discover how selfish i am is to observe the behavior of my children towards me. my son seems so selfish that i ..cringe.. at the thought. he puts us on a shelf, his mother and me, and takes us down when he has time for us. he calls when he wishes to tell me something and we can talk easily cause he has chosen the time for me. when i call him, he is too busy and hadn t plan to use time with me etc. this kind of treatment hurts but i deserve it cause i probably treated him that way when he was growing up. i should be grateful cause he is a great husband, and father also something i was not. that sentence violated my goal of not criticizing myself but i felt it appropriate for the topic.lol take care..joe 7 months ago

i am sick of playing on line chess,and words with friends. there is nothing to watch on tv. if i write to you guys, will you give me some ideas about how to fill the time tonight from 8;30 to 11;30 pm ? i tried listening to lectures on lit, writing, on u tube but i don t have the patience for that. i wish there were a chat line here at 43 so i could chat with some of you. i can t read at this time of night cause i keep falling asleep. when i sleep this early i can t sleep well at night. 7 months ago

good morning readers. i am at my sister in laws which fact causes much creativity on my part to overcome the boredom. my wife spends most of the time talking with her sister while i am set to fend for myself. there are some good things about this situation cause everyone enjoys some time alone in a marriage. i spend the first two hours reading my kindle. i finished LADY CHATTERLY S LOVER this am for the 3rd time and it never fails to amaze me how good this book is and how ahead of his time d h lawrence was. his writing becomes historical fiction when he describes england in the 20s, culture, industry. he writes of psychology and of course the sexual attitudes of the people at that time. great stuff more latter ..take care..joe 7 months ago

is sitting here posting on this site an accomplishment which i can record as something i accomplished today ? 7 months ago

she is cleaning the house from top to bottom and i always feel guilty when she does this cause i sit and read, surf, go to breakfast with friends while she works. i can t do much to help her cause she is so particular about how stuff is cleaned that she ll clean it again after i finish.
i keep thinking, compulsively, of chess and how my opponents attack me often since they have learned that i don t fend off these attack well. how can i practice attacking which i think is the best way to fight off attacks ? i have been a passive defensive player and now i need to learn to attack. if you know, how to do so , write to me here and tell me. thanks joe 7 months ago

as i type this, the eagles are playing on my boom box. it is their latest album. wow, ..i don t what to lose you..don t tell me it s over..i ve been here before.. wow.. 7 months ago

as i sit here,hoping for time to go by so i can eat, i think of my 71 year old friend girl who died two days ago. she has no more time. i hope there is an after life and she is happy now with our many friends and relatives who have died, my mom and dad, her mom and dad, two of her husbands, and many others. i picture them all in heaven greeting another southsider to there ranks. there are many old women in a nursing home east of town which i am sure she didn t want to go to. she refused special treatment when they told her she had two days to live with internal bleeding after her third heart attack. rest in peace, friend. 7 months ago

this sentence typed here is my accomplishment for today. this sentence adds to that effort. i helped my wife carry pottery yard pots,birds,cylinders, bird baths from the yard to the garage. i mowed some of the lawn while she walk mowed most of it. much done today and more to come since it s only 5;15 pm. we will watch the dvd of SEX AND THE CITY from year one tonight so i can send it back to NETFLEX ,receive disc two and complete year one so we can then view season two on the 4 videos which i purchased for $4 at a thrift. much to do, much to view, take care..joe 7 months ago

how do i thank a person for a cheer when they don t have a message column on their page ? what s with that type of page ? thank you allenberlin for including prayers for my daughter in your cheer. god grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference. we are praying that my daughter quits smoking. take care..joe 7 months ago

the people whom i know who are near retirement want to know how i fill my time. it does become a problem at times. if romney wins, i may have to work to continue to earn a living, but my wife says no one would hire me..lol. i have begun to think that each sentence i write on this site and in my journals is a form of accomplishment. when i wonder what i will do next, i have begun to think.. i will write one sentence after another. the sentences i write here will be here for others to read, free of charge..lol, forever. i also play very bad chess. i have a board set up on my table and when i have nothing to do i can make a move vs. my computer in hopes of improving my game. 7 months ago

writing to the people i am subscribed to in an effort to receive more messages isn t succeeding yet so i will make a general appeal here. i know i need to write about interesting things to receive comments and messages but i don t wish to make people angry or gross people out so i will just write ..whatever is on my mind..from time to time. one of my best friends from childhood is in a hospital dying from heart failure. she is 72. she has stated that she wants no special procedures taken to prolong her life. many of my friends have died recently and it makes me wonder when my turn will come. on the other hand my 93 year old father in law keeps ticking along with the aid of his pace maker and makes us all feel as if he may out live us all. his life is sad to us but my wife says, not sad to him. he lives in the present moment. he sits in a chair all day and tries to read but he keeps reading the same pages over and over again. my sister in law is taking good care of him and that s a good thing. 7 months ago

as i write on this site, i know i have many entries. so many, that i could have a book if i were to print them all, but it would cost me much ink and paper. i am not cheap but we have a very tight budget. i feel as if i am giving this site my writings free of charge. they will stay here forever and someone someday will print them, if they still print on paper in the future. i guess i could put the entries onto a cd but i am not quite sure how to do that. if one of you 43ers knows how to do that , write to me and tell me how to do it. i have begun to enjoy writing on this site. it helps me feel as if i am accomplishing something when i do so. 7 months ago

am i smart, dumb, or an imposter ? my mom was of very average intelligence but brilliant with stubbornness. i never knew my father. he was mentally ill for my entire life and he died at age 68. his mother was very intelligent. his half brothers and sisters were brilliant. i feel confused about this issue daily..smart, dumb, average. who am i ? 7 months ago

how do writers acquire the self discipline to sit down and write for hours ? the old writers had to use quills, pencils, primitive type writers. i can sit here with this pc, the machine correcting my spelling, the cursor following my every wish and yet i only have enough patience for a paragraph or two at a time. do any of you write fiction ? i have written one paragraph of fiction in my entire life and reached my limit. i am afraid to even try to write fiction. it s not really fear. i don t know what the feeling is which keeps me from writing fiction. i have read over 700 books of fiction in the past 10 years and yet i can t write any of it. i enjoy books by john irving, larry brown, pat conroy, richard russo, sinclair lewis, william faulkner, john steinbeck, sherwood anderson. read on people. 7 months ago

i am 70 and my son will be 40 next month. he has no respect for me. he yells at me and tells me to stop saying ,shit, around his kids. he says he s trying to teach them to be courteous yet he yells at me in front of them. i said to my wife, yes, i ll have a sandwich ,too, and he said say, please. i said, don t tell me what to do, . at that point he sat up, yelled at me, do you want to fight ? i don t know where that came from but his 9 yr. old daughter was sitting right there watching us. we then argued loudly. i said i simply made a statement and we argued. he had to get the last word but i think i slowed him down when i said, is this a good example yelling at your dad in front of your daughter ? my wife said he is taking his frustrations with his wife out on you cause he knows he can get a way with that kind of talk towards you. i am trying to get him to stop doing that. i hope he has thought about this incident today and tries to change it for the next time we see each other. we only see each other 3 or 4 times a year..sad, true. 7 months ago

if i can remember that everything is relative with regard to progress in a particular endeavor, i can have serenity. i enjoy chess but my improvement is slow compared to others i know. i need to remember that i am only competing with myself with regard to progress. i study harder and practice more than most players that i know but that s where the relativity comes in. the most important thing i want to remember is that i enjoy the game and the concentration is good for my brain. 7 months ago

two years ago, i decided that i wanted to take chess seriously and i have done so to the point of too much thinking about it. i want to discover another hobby/activity to think about so as not to think about chess so often. the hobby/activity needs to cost very little, require little driving time and occupies my body as well as my mind. suggestions would be appreciated. i already walk about 45 minutes a day. thanks joe 7 months ago

how does one relax after losing 3 out of 4 chess games and one of these to a 14 yr old ? i started our librarian onto my magnetic miniature chess board while playing george on our big board. george said i can t use the excuse that i am playing two games at a time if i lose. i won that first game and then george beat me two in a row. i hung up my queen in the 2nd by not seeing that back road bishop. i have forgotten about him many times. i lost the 3rd game by failing to take his bishop which was threatening along with his queen to checkmate me. he did that in a few more moves. the way to beat me is to attack me early. jake in the 4th, quick game, took my queen with a bishop again. i love chess so i will never quit. 7 months ago