kill a spider without screaming

there was a little baby spider in my shower a few days ago. tried to wash it down the drain, but i knew that wouldn’t kill it and it would just come back to HAUNT ME.
so.
after searching in the bathroom for something to use, i decided upon my bottle of conditioner. so i took it, held it as far away from me as possible, and started whacking it against the shower.
until ^SPLAT it made contact and squished that nasty little spider everywhere. thats when i kindof let out a little screamy squeak. because it just kinda scared/surprised me.
but it wasnt any like hardcore, full on screaming.
so do you think that counts? i think so!!

:D :D yay for me!!
one step closer to living out on my own. :P

impossible.

they’re coming back already.
today i was in the shower. looked up, and BAM. there was a spider on the ceiling!! i freaked out, quickly finished washing, (thank god i was almost done) and i booked it outta there! then i told my brother to go get it. :)

there was just a spider. in my room. on my door.
it was pretty small.
but i’m home alone :(
i tried to hit it with a shoe. my shoe even.
i was screaming and swearing like a freaking sailor. except even worse probably.
and i dont even know if i even killed it or not. :( :( :(
fucking a.
where could it have gone??
gahhhh

IT CAME BACKI HAVE TO GO

its so nice. :)

but we had to put up fake spider webs with fake spiders in them for this party we were decorating for, and those fake spiders freaked me out!! especially when my friend threw one at me..and when it looked like they were actually hanging from a web. ewww i was scared. :(

i’m pretty terrified of spiders.
i’ve killed a few, but only with intense screaming and running around and shaking. i even scream when other people kill them.
they’ve made me cry a few times. they’ve made me go sleep with my dad in the middle of the night. they’ve made me not use one of our bathrooms for over a month.
my mom says that i’m bigger than them and i need to get over my fear. “what happens when you’re out on your own?”
—“i’ll find myself a husband”

i cant kill them with shoes. ew. or anything relatively close up. only with our bug killer spray. or drain-o. or throwing really heavy things at them. oh gosh.
it’s bad. :S