social phobia

I wasnt always like this, as a kid i was outgoing, rambunctious,talkative…but something happened. Well my therapist says that ive always had it but as i got older it just got worse! Which i dun believe cuz i know i was different as a kid…much different than now! Therapy does help..at least it does for me! some things i cudnt do that i can do now: order at a restaurant, buy things, ask for help, raise my hand, talk to a doctor, talk to adults, look ppl in the eyes, stand up for myself, talk on the phone, show anger, thats just a few. Some days i feel like im never gonna win this battle n i know ill struggle my whole life with this…but i wish i cud just take a pill n make it go away. I do take pills for it but…they just dun always work. N just recently i let my dragon win by dropping out of skool! I titled this my dragon cuz thats what it is, like a little evil voice telling me i cant do this or that! N maybe thats what we have to understand that its just our inner voice telling us what we cant do, but it’s def. easier said than done! Little things can make me feel like ive climbed a mountain like today i called a place for a job, actaully just to ask a question…but still i was so elated! ttyl ppls! its always nice to know im not the only one witha social phobia! 4 years ago