Pick a theme song for myself

“Green Day – Boulevard Of Broken Dreams” spoke to me. With lyrics like….

“My shadow’s the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart’s the only thing that’s beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
‘Til then I walk alone”

It’s about being alone. I’ve been alone a lot in my life. (good and bad?)

Thing is though, and this is GOOD.... (very good).... my boyfriend found me…. so I’m not as alone now (I do still sometimes feel alone, guess that never goes away completely, but I feel at least that now I have a good relationship – which I haven’t always had). Actually I found him, but that’s not relevant…. we found each other, basically.

I’m happier now, is my point. As much as that song is beautiful, it’s not “happy” per se. Perhaps I don’t want a HAPPY song, OR a sad song…. just a song, or several EVEN…. that define me. ME. Whether I’m happy or sad – just ME, who I am!

Can I do this? Music is so important to me. I need lots of songs that are just ME!

I can’t believe I haven’t done this yet. Anyways, GEKKOU won’t do. I don’t like the melody. So, it’s either SHION or REPETITION OF HATRED by Dir en grey. It’s a real complicated choice, since I love both of them.

However, considering my insane crush on the band’s guitarist, I might just go and pick THE FATAL BELIEVER. I didn’t like the idea, but… it kind of makes sense, when you look at it THIS way. Hmmm… and I totally LOVE the melody. I’ll think about this one.

The part that made me go ‘nooo…’ was: “please grant my small wish – love me to the marrow of my bones”. I thought it was beautiful, but stupid… but now I think that it’s beautiful and awesome.

So… Almost done.

• REPETITION OF HATRED by Dir en grey
• GEKKOU by MUCC
• SHION by MUCC

At first, there were loads of candidates, but I narrowed it down by being extremely picky about lyrics – I didn’t pick anything depressing, since that’s what I’m trying to avoid. I didn’t pick any song that is about love [and there were quite a few of them]. Surprisingly, all my favorite songs were depressing, even if they sounded real cool… and I know that I’ll write songs that won’t be cheerful… so what the hell am I supposed to pick? xDDDD

GEKKOU surprised me – I accidentally came accross it, and it reflects my current state quite well. However, I’ve never heard it. On the other hand, SHION is pretty cool, and I know the translation… REPETITION OF HATRED is the most aggressive out of all the three songs – and I mean VERY, VERY aggressive… so, I can’t pick all three… This decision will have to wait.

I mean… I could just pick REPETITION OF HATRED, since Dir en grey are my total gods, but it doesn’t sound like a very good method. I’ll overlook lots of different things.

If I won’t be able to pick, then I’ll just choose something from Maximum the Hormone, or an instrumental song. This shit is really getting crazy.

I’ve had a theme song, and it’s still a really special song to me, but I really want to start a new period of my life. It’s an EXTREMELY beautiful, powerful, but most of all INSANELY DEPRESSING song. I want to leave all of that behind. I need a new one. I need to change who I am.

hellp

When I saw this goal I thought “Hey, I want a theme song! I am doing this!” Then the second thought that went though my head was Prayer Of The Refugee by Rise Against. This song describes me so well!

“Warm yourself by the fire, son,
And the morning will come soon.
I’ll tell you stories of a better time,
In a place that we once knew.

Before we packed our bags
And left all this behind us in the dust,
We had a place that we could call home,
And a life no one could touch.

Don’t hold me up now,
I can stand my own ground,
I don’t need your help now,
You will let me down, down, down!”

It is official..I love Dancing Queen no way around it.

there’s this song by Plumb that i really like, “phobic”. i’m not sure if i’m right about the true meaning of the song, but it makes me feel like no matter what mistakes i make, no matter who knows about them, i’m still worth something. i’m not a complete and utter failure. i deserve happiness and love. the song goes:

I watched you sit alone
I watched you cry your eyes out
Now tell me what you’ve done

is it so bad that
I would shut you out
And leave you here alone

Yes, I saw what you did
I was right there with you
I won’t let you sink
No, I forgive you

Phobic
Don’t be
Grace needs a little more freedom
Phobic
Don’t be
Love needs room to breathe

I have watched you grow
And I’ve stood in your shadow
I’ve never walked away

I hung the stars and
I hold your heart
So, don’t ever be afraid

Yes, I know when you breathe
And I feel when you need
I won’t let you sink
No, I forgive you

You can be healed
You can be free
You can know peace
Never be afraid again

Never be afraid
Never be afraid
He’s here

i really love this song.

god, i could do this every month of the year…
the first song that came to mind was Leah Andreone’s “It’s alright, it’s OK”.
but one of those stupid little tests on the web told me that my personal theme should be “Walkin on Sunshine”...
this is gonna take some thinking…

I think this is something that will likely to evolve over time. Right now I think it would be “I Was Broken” – I am familiar with the Robert Pattinson version, but I suspect it is a cover. Its melancholy but with an edge of hope and change to it.

I would like to revisit this goal in 6 months and again in a year to see how it evolves (Im. putting it in ‘give up’ just so its out of the way

Maybe search for a song that is something to aspire to being is a good goal as well. A theme song in that it is how you would like to live your life rather than its current theme.