I just got promoted the other day.. I applied on this position First ,is I want to get out of something that i dont like anymore. Second, I want to try a new environment. I’m so happy about the blessings that im gettng right now. However, im afraid of the new task that im gonna be getting w/ this new post.. Maybe because I really dont know what im gonna do w/ the new post.. Also this would be really challenging in my part since this would be the high level post that i got. sigh… 5 years ago
will help me today. Yesterday was rough for many reasons (work, interactions with teenager, interactions with so). I’m doing my best this morning to stay in a positive frame of mind and try not to let things get me down. I’m looking for my happy place. 5 years ago
things have definitely changed in my life from my last entry. I am still a little stressed, but all in all trying to manage my stress better. Some things have improved and some have stayed the same. I actually had a couple people tell me in the last week what a great positive attitude I have. Maybe it will rub off on others. :o) 5 years ago
current mood today unhappy, negative, unmotivated and stressed. Not at all where I should be. Not feeling well. Not happy – want to just crawl under a rock somewhere and hide out for a while. I could use a nice vacation, maybe clear my head a bit. I may start carrying a journal with me again and going somewhere to write on my lunchhour. 6 years ago
OMG! The past few days have been kinda stressful and I’m finding it really hard trying to fight the inner negative demons.
-I’m crazy slammed at work. Upper management is trying to stifle overtime even though the company as a whole is super busy.
-My neighbors cooking smells getting into my furnace is driving me crazy. It stunk so bad last night. I turned off the furnace, lit candles and incense, sprayed Oust all over the place and it still smelled. I’m going to talk to the Association about it…not about the neighbors but about why their smells are even getting into my condo.
-A guy friend at work liking me more than just friends and is now upset and blaming his negative feelings on me because I don’t want to hang out with him anymore because his feelings make me uncomfortable. I’m sorry but someone cannot blame their negative feelings on someone else. His reactions to my actions are what is causing his negative feelings. He has the power to change his own feelings. I’m choosing to ignore his wanting to talk to me and his 6 page email that just goes on and on about how upset he is….I can’t help him with that, it’s not my responsibility to help him and I don’t want to help him. If he would realize, he can help himself. GRRRRRR, it’s very frustrating!
-Something else is wrong with my car now! The small side passenger window started leaking yesterday. It’s not a window that rolls down so the seal must be broken. Now, how much is that going to cost me?!?
-I only got about 4 hours of sleep last night. I just wish I would stop waking up. Why can’t I sleep through the whole night? Stress, maybe?!? Even when I take something to help me sleep and do a relaxation technique, I’m still waking up.
Okay! I need to get control of my feelings…but wow is it hard right now. Breathe, breathe!!!! 6 years ago
A coworker told me he’s noticed a positive change in me in the past few months. He said I seem happier. Yes, I am!
I’ve added another mantra, from the Transforming Anger book I’m now reading. When I take a breathe in I think “I am calm and relaxed” and when I breathe out I think “I feel appreciation, compassion and joy.” When I breathe out I have to feel the breathe and my thought going to my heart. I have to remember to do that when I start getting irritated. It’s really hard to because my negative emotion takes over in a split second. It usually happens when I’m driving and someone is driving like a jerk or when the neighbors make some noise or when some coworkers annoy me with their noises…which is part of my being a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP). Everything seems to be coming around in a big circle. I just have to figure out what is in the middle, the one thing that I can improve upon that will help me completely transform…or maybe it’s not that simple. Wouldn’t it be nice if it was simple?!? 6 years ago
By Tenzin Gyatso; The Fourteenth Dalai Lama
How to achieve happiness
For a start, it is possible to divide every kind of happiness and suffering into two main categories: mental and physical. Of the two, it is the mind that exerts the greatest influence on most of us. Unless we are either gravely ill or deprived of basic necessities, our physical condition plays a secondary role in life. If the body is content, we virtually ignore it. The mind, however, registers every event, no matter how small. Hence we should devote our most serious efforts to bringing about mental peace.
From my own limited experience I have found that the greatest degree of inner tranquility comes from the development of love and compassion.
The more we care for the happiness of others, the greater our own sense of well-being becomes. Cultivating a close, warm-hearted feeling for others automatically puts the mind at ease. This helps remove whatever fears or insecurities we may have and gives us the strength to cope with any obstacles we encounter. It is the ultimate source of success in life.
As long as we live in this world we are bound to encounter problems. If, at such times, we lose hope and become discouraged, we diminish our ability to face difficulties. If, on the other hand, we remember that it is not just ourselves but every one who has to undergo suffering, this more realistic perspective will increase our determination and capacity to overcome troubles. Indeed, with this attitude, each new obstacle can be seen as yet another valuable opportunity to improve our mind!
Thus we can strive gradually to become more compassionate, that is we can develop both genuine sympathy for others’ suffering and the will to help remove their pain. As a result, our own serenity and inner strength will increase.
Oh do I need to learn how to do this! But how do I do it when it’s obvious the person isn’t putting any effort forth themselves to be nice, considerate and/or compassionate to me? My thinking is that they aren’t worth it, if they aren’t going to at least be nice to me why should I even bother with them. I guess I need to be the “bigger” person and show them compassion nevertheless. Seeing as I can’t get away from these egoistic people, I better learn how to peacefully live with them before they drive me crazy.
How?!? I can’t see it from where I am right now. 6 years ago