confront my paranoia about paranoia

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I found somehow,

I don’t use game utilities as much as I’d like

‘cdku ne@r’ on google yields coded results

sometimes may be found:

here is http://www.haloscan.com/

devoted to high-level blog administration,

including at least ‘customer profiles’ etc.

[one must ask: what is priveleged information?, at least, knowledge]

claimed my site nathancoppedge.com wasn’t verified.

Normally the process occurs smoothely: I create a blank html file in my website folder which google bots find on request, thereby proving that the site is my own.

I followed steps to confirm verification in order to access webstatistics and so on, something I had done before.

Upon creating a text file in my Yahoo! small business account, and Ctr-pasting the html code from google, I received a message that the file would have to be overwritten—the exact code was already present in my folder.

Upon using the same exact name for an html file, google verified my account correctly.

What this implies is the system is not being honest whatsoever—using one of six or eight or ten thousand random options is a technique used in text adventures to give the appearance of complexity in controlled and artificial situations.

The alternative is to believe that google checks the date of the file, and if it doesn’t match, it won’t check the name, even if its the same. However, this would indicate that I’m just exceptionally lucky, or someone wants to prove that I’m missing some significant details in life.

On the other hand, maybe its an elaborate prank. Some ideas offer complexity without resolving anything.

Maybe Occam’s razor is that google is being difficult and there was in fact no reason to verify my site yet again.

However, this makes me angry that I couldn’t access web statistics, a service I thought to be provided.

adventures in Libra-Scorpio psychology

when the twilight zone passed by way of the bermuda triangle:

“I-OHHH SAYS…”

“A little too close to home”

What does the mind consist in when it ignores its own consistency? Reasons for masks.

Sometimes my thinking goes places I don’t want it to go

Considering intelligence may be a consideration of power then a considering of fear.

From notions of abyss comes the thought of devilfish,

What is deception? It becomes the most and least deceptive thought.

Life not as it seems? Prices in the end? Things handled only by divine?

One can grow and not grow, withering on what has not been done; hollow worlds beyond the seen, or failures for every glittering chance appreciation, ways in which life avoids the certain good, or presents it finally at a price.

“empathy for the bureaucracy” death of the beastie boys
(makes me want to roar in horror by reference to their lyrics)

{edit: recently one of their songs seemed “fruity” on the radio; I had absurd thoughts of blueberries and bananas, “all the fruity flavors”}

{2nd edit: a song playing at a cafe called “the rock and roll lifestyle” failed miserably to compare to the beastie boys in spite of sharing some elements. The only worry is if the self-mocking tone of these sorts of songs turns on itself when future generations are forced to be self-conscious without living the milieu}

etc. I’ve found other examples before

(begs the question of where words like maudlin come from)

and how personal success and brain chemistry are to some extent a separate issue.

Evidence #1: “robots on the internet” worst fears confirmed ( 43things webchatter )

Implications: much time wasted on things mindlessly managed by my betters.

Evidence #2: “Population Schedules” elements hidden from public view

a happenstantial search for an article number happening to match a book’s request number at the library resulted in a North Virginia census report mentioning something about “population schedules”. Although it was not made clear what this meant, the intuitive view is that this indicates mass population control in a very precise and robotic fashion. Not conclusive, although alarming. Another view is that “schedules” is a generic term similar to “tax schedules”.

Evidence #3: Overheard Someone Suspicious About Fishermen Near Harvard

What would make someone nervous? Maybe aliens teleporting from another universe. Doubtful? Do you have an IQ of 200+? If interplanetary travelers could go to the college of their choice, would they choose to go somewhere else? With that much said, aliens are not a major delusion for me; I rarely think about alien life without thinking of sex.

Evidence #4: Interpreting the Economical Term “In the Black”

A great deal is often hidden in ‘slanty’ expressions that seem unyielding at first. For example, “basket case” is an anagram for “casket base” implicative that crazy people want to die. In the case of ‘in the black’ what is implicated is not simply fiscal substance but considerable potential for obscurity (darkness) in human zones, as though entire zones of reality, or all reality known to an individual, may serve a hidden or concealed interest of any kind, such that for example, the notion of major commercial interests and their use of consumers may be more extreme than imagined (e.g. if there are ways to use consumers without their knowledge). Implicative here is a “layering” to consumer realities, either mentally or structurally, such that a notion of gain is always subsumed in a higher loss.