find myself again

Trying to discover who you really are,getting over people and things that happened that seem to have left a mark on you it’s hard and painful and confusing.
Sometimes I feel that I know what I want and others,I feel completely lost and utterly confused.
I try to rid myself off all the negativity,but I tend to cling on people and memories,even if they hurt me,just because I have had good times with them in the past.

Perhaps I’m too naive and sensitive,perhaps I can’t always see clearly.Should I keep in touch with some people that have changed my life ( either in a good or a less good way ) and that they mean something to me even though they have hurt me but also gave me some happy moments,or should I forget about them once and for all?
I try to find myself,but it seems that there are some certain people that keep holding me back.And I know it’s not their fault,it’s mine.Because I hold on to the good times we had together and I don’t let myself move on.

But now, I think it’s good timing to do a little soul searching of my own,since my friends are out of town for a few days,as is my brother,and I can’t be distracted.

- Spend some time recollecting my thoughts and putting them in some sort of order inside my head.

- Meditate for at least 10 minutes tonight.

- Call my brother.DONE

- Text my friend.

- Write down my thoughts in hopes of decluttering my brain a bit.

I was away the last couple of days.I paid a visit to the city I’ve mentioned before that I’m gonna be studying in,in a few months.
I saw the apartment that I’m gonna be living in for the next four years,and I really liked it and the area it was located in.
The area is full of life,busy with lots of people and across my building there’s a park filled with trees and green grass.There’s also benches and I’ve spotted one that I’m gonna be sitting on frequently!
This little trip to this big,busy and alive city,somehow rejuvenated me,it opened my eyes.
The city I live in and I have lived in for 20 years since I was born,is very small and I feel that it has nothing else to give to me,to explore,to learn,to create.

But now that I’ve seen what this city can offer me,I somehow feel alive again and more happy,knowing that the years in my life to come,are going to be creative.

than I thought it was.
These last couple of days I’ve been feeling a little lost and things I thought I’ve dealt with and got over in the past,seem to come back again.
Memories,little doubts I have about myself.
Sometimes I’m thinking what’s the point in it all?But I do want to be a happy and psychologically healthy person.
I want to settle old scores,get rid of my self doubt and of people in my life that only seem to do me harm.
I want,no,I have to make a fresh start.
I owe this to myself.

well i find it harder and harder to even start looking. i am constatly yelling and being the bad guy with the kids. the boy is teething or something and wont stop making noise and the girl oh my she is trying to kill me. seriously she keeps hurting me on purpose. how am i to find me if i am always to busy for me.oh my oh my.

i lost myself right out of highschool. id like to find myself again. i miss me. its like my best friend went away and never even wrote. i am now shy and introverted. i never leave the house and i have not a friend in the world other than my husband and my 2 kids

I have a really good job which I enjoy I feel I had to change my personality to fit in with the job and get the results they wanted from me which I have done, work is going well and i’m hitting the targets I need, this is good but my boyfriend is saying i’m less and less like the person he met i’m doing the job for us both to get better things.I know i have changed a bit but i didn’t think as much as he makes out.i;m sure he’s telling me to help me but it just makes me feel worse and really really sad, am I such an awful person now? Is it all my fault? sometimes I cant be bothered with it all I try my best to be the person he met as I did like myself then, all he says now is i’m ot like I used to be but on days when I do try he will menton it too I wonder will I ever get back there?

that I’m making some major progress here.
I’m happy!For no particular reason,but I am!

And I’m feeling better everyday in my own skin and that’s a huge step for a girl that used to hate looking herself in the mirror.
I’m more confident now.

I’m not gonna say yet that I’ve completed this goal,I still have a lot of way to go,but I think that everyday brings me closer to my true self.

I dont even know how but i seem to have lost who i really am . It seems as though i dont know myself anymore . When i look back at the way i used to be i wonder what changed and how i could have let it happen. I used to be so set on everything . I knew exactly who i was and what i wanted . Now i dont even recognize myself . Its like when i look in the mirror it isnt me . I need help. But i cant seem to ask for it.

I don’t know who I am anymore.

i really need to become self reliant and happy on my own again.
i was really really depending on my boyfriend to fix everything, calling him being my only source of happiness and just like puttting too much pressure on it.

after a recent breakup scare/discussion, i’ve kind of realized that if im not happy with who i am i cant make it work

to do long distance relationships you need to be very happy with your own life and take every day you get to be with your S.O and every phone call as just a wonderful experience and fully enjoy it but not dwell on anything else.

i dont really know where i’m going with this except for that i need to figure out who i am in my life and what things are MINE. no matter what.